Notices by Tim McTuffty 🌶️🐿️ (tim_mctuffty@beige.party), page 3

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 83 Friday 19/01/24

TL:DR Ups & downs.

So today was a reasonable day , up at 5 after nearly 7 hours of sleep.

Had a chat with my Bestie & then did chores & ticked off a couple of things that I have kept putting off.

I’m hoping to get up in the loft tomorrow & de-install the extractor fan so I can give it a good clean , a task originally scheduled for the beginning of December last year !

Got some EOS co-op time this afternoon, it has to be said I’m pretty poor at it, it seems. I am too enthusiastic & tend to forget that others are with me.

I often wonder why folks bother with me, I’m fat, inactive & anti social. I have so many MH issues one could fill a book with the acronyms !

I often wonder , if I were free, if anyone would fall for the person I am now. There truly isn’t much to recommend me - I think me n herself stay together out of habit, we share little in common, & I am more a parasite than a symbiont these days .

Hey ho, it is what it is, we march forward because there is no going back !

Final Thoughts.

I’m not sure why my mood has dropped so suddenly, it has not been a bad day, but sometimes I struggle to keep my dislike of myself under wraps & self doubt creeps in along with everything else.

A massive thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Good night all 😊🫶🐿️🖖

https://mastodonapp.uk/@MaJ1/111727917642116881

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 71 Monday 08/01/24

TL:DR Slightly less ugh!

A better day today, still sick as a dog, everything aching & painful but at least not feeling like death warmed up !

Managed to do ablutions & get dressed this morning , a little NMS & a lot of snoozing.

Final Thoughts:

On the way back up - yay!

A massive thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 66 Wednesday 03/01/24

TL:DR I am so very exhausted !

Today has been a quiet day, my mood has been subdued , my energy levels just above life support !

Project WOOF stumbled along, I have cut down a lot on what I have eaten , but there was still naughty stuff in there !

I had a really good gaming session with CDP 🧚♀️ , who also helped to keep my nibbling to a minimum !

I have gone wild & got a smartwatch to help track my steps , heart rate etc. Amongst other things it is reminding me to get my ass out of the chair on a regular basis!

I hope this flunk I’m in moves on tomorrow , I need to get this year started , preferably before November !

Final Thoughts:

I think everything that happend to trigger me over the holidays, that I suppressed, has ganged up with the SAD & mugged me - I hope that it will be a very short term thing!

A massive thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

#MorningAll & #TZAG

G’day Squirrel Fans, hope I find you bright eyed & bushy tailed!

Really disturbed night so only just getting up , need a quiet day today, far too kuch excitement over the holidays.
AJJ will be out later so will have solitude for the first time since the 22/12/23 !

Have a cracking day #Today & remember #RuleNo1: Don’t let ‘em Cash-ew !

😊🫶🐿️🖖
@weirdfolks
#WeirdFolks #SquirrelsOfMastodon #TheMammutMoves

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 64 Monday 01/01/24

TL:DR New Year , new me ! ; Masto Peeps are totally awesome ! Mega New Years Shoutout !

I slept like the proverbial dead last night & woke up around 8:30am , had a peaceful day finishing our Star Trek fest.

Had a chat with my dear friend CDP 🧚♀️ , who was definitely feeling the after effects of pulling a 24 hour New Years Eve stint - I have never met anyone with such determination & drive , she still wanted to get her steps in & achieve her daily goals ! Cynni you are an inspiration !

Seems that although I texted every member of my family at midnight this morning & wished them a Happy New Year , not a single one of them felt the need to actually talk to me today, although all but my Dad did text me back, so I guess I should be glad of small mercies !

My New Year’s resolutions tie in closely with my plans for the year:

1. Lose 120lbs - 55Kg of weight
2. Get back to a level of fitness that allows me to maintain the lower weight & still eat.
3. Fight the agoraphobia so I can get out of the house.
4. Improve my mental health so I can function better
5. Discard the detritus of the last 30 years & stop hoarding.
6. Stop drinking daily & limit my cake intake !

See easy , simple resolutions 😆

Final Thoughts:

A new year will hopefully result in a new me , or at least a healthier , happier me.

I have have some awesome friends, & I would like to take the opportunity to recognise them here , if you want a list of top peeps to follow then this is pretty definitive! :

Victims, oops sorry, participants brace for impact 😜😂 - you may want to mute the thread after the first 1000 notifications or so 😈

This list is not in any order!

@evelynefoerster
@dgar
@si_irini
@Sneezy50783211
@DoubleTreble
@PaulNickson
@Paul
@countcol
@Bwee
@johnnyd_cm
@BlippyTheWonderSlug
@Cbfoley
@harriettmb
@RickiTarr
@skyfire747
@SilverRainbow
@Rasta
@kaybee335
@jacqui76
@ruperttherabbit
@EVDHmn
@pathfinder
@NormanDunbar
@niamhgarvey
@SurrealSeal
@Pierrette
@SteveClough
@CoachMark
@Rana
@amiserabilist
@PynkEmber
@ FiStitchWitch@mstdn.social (see I did think of you sweetie ! )

And of course not forgetting
@PlaystationPixy !

Please , for the love of Nuggan self police your threads , otherwise @theropologist (also a most awesome Peep & Admin) will prolly stuff me & mount me in the Beige.Party server room !

A massive thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

@HistoPol @actuallyautistic G’night my friend 😊🫶🐿️🖖

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 55 Saturday 23/12/23

TL:DR Christmas is incoming ! ; NMS forever! (ish) ; Some folk are born to be gamers - CDP 🧚♀️is definitely one of those people ! 😊 ; Clean build iPhone lives !

Really quite a nice day !

Gaming with CDP 🧚♀️ , building new bases, starting to get her Freighter set up & working thru one of the main quest lines.

Caught up on some TV with Mrs Squirrel this afternoon , she went shopping this morning so now we actually have something resembling the makings of a Christmas Day buffet.

I truly enjoy gaming with CDP 🧚♀️ we tease each other mercilessly & I am constantly impressed how well she is doing in NMS given the massive learning curve that game has !
I try not to take the lead too much because I want her to discover stuff for herself, but sometimes I get lost in the moment & romp off at my normal speed.
We are both learning new combat skills - ie avoiding killing each other - & discovering the intricacies of the multi-player version !
One of these days , when CDP 🧚♀️ asks where something is , I will stop pointing with my finger 😂

A really good sign of my improving MH is that I finally got round to doing a clean install of the OS on my iphone - something that I have meaning to do all year - never got round to it on the old phone & just used the automated xfer process when I got the 15.

All is going well at time of going to press , tomorrow will see the creation of new automation & tailoring of Apps.

Final Thoughts:

A really good day on the whole , only minor triggers which were easily dealt with.

As mentioned before I have found that I have VERY specific requirements for co-op playing, I hope others that have either hinted at , or directly asked me to play co-op with them & have been rebuffed wil understand that it is not something I have any real control over - My autistic mind sets the rules not me.
Maybe with time & learning new coping strategies I will be better able to expand my gaming ‘fam’ (Nuggan I HATE that word 😂 )

My phone is now a lean , mean , dialling machine 😜😂

Cider & rum in the same glass is NOT nice - don’t ask !

Oh can anyone who has used the journaling app ‘Day One’ please let me know if its any good, after 55 days of writing this in IOS notes I need something a bit better. Alternative suggestions also welcome!

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 54 Friday 22/12/23

TL:DR Gaming , choring & the last of the ASD Pre-assessment sessions. Topped off by a pizza 😊

Some early morning gaming with CDP 🧚♀️ before chores & catching up on here.

A missed Doctors appointment was nearly a cause for concern , but it was a telephone based appointment & I was lucky that he called back just before lunch.

Another NMS session this afternoon was followed by the last of the Pre-assessment appointments , which went very well.

A nice evening meal with a couple of glasses of cider & and ‘Silent Witness’ finished the day.

Final Thoughts:

Pre-assessment is done - next appointment will be the real thing !

I’m coming to realise just how much of my life has been affected by autism!

Christmas lurks just beyond the horizon !

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Seems so, currently resisting the urge to go downstairs stairs & let my friends Dry Ginger & rum keep me company.

There are mechanics at work here that are too hard to share out load, this might be the least excited I have ever been about Xmas, & that in itself makes me unhappy.

Tomorrow masks will be back on, Squirrel here in the digital world & functioning human adult male in the analog world .

Onwards ->

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 53 Thursday 21/12/23

TL:DR The day was great, till it wasn’t. ; Dark stormy skies reflected in dark stormy thoughts.

Spent the day relaxing & doing things I really enjoy, Tooting on here, playing NMS with CDP 🧚♀️ & having a good chin wag.

Then the dreaded trip to Costco, which to cut a long story short was everything I expected it to be.

Of course we had no idea of exactly what MiL enjoyed, merely what she didn’t like , because asking questions like “ what would you like to have for xmas lunch Mum” seemed to been deemed irrelevant by AJJ.

So we drove 15 miles to Costco, thru driving rain & heavy traffic & 15 miles back in similar conditions for a single shopping bags worth of stuff from a major wholesale store! Countless triggers along the way.

Hey ho , diverting destructive thoughts by watchingTom Hanks in ‘Fitch’ others may disagree, but I think he is one of the very best actors of our age. He rarely makes a movie that I don’t like.

A man , a dog & his robot, on a road trip to avoid the rest of humanity in a post apocalyptic world, what more does an ASD tech nerd need ?

Final Thoughts:

This place & gaming is currently keeping me sane, this is not a confirmed stable state!

A New Years resolution will be to beat the acrophobia & take responsibility for the shopping again!

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 52 Wednesday 20/12/23

TL:DR 🥱😴

Stayed up late last night to catch up with NMS . 1 more day for this expedition.

A mix of chores , chatting with CDP 🧚♀️ & playing NMS filled my day, I had a really nice day. 😊

A sudden onset of fatigue is making writing this really hard to concentrate on.

I really cannot string one thought together with another.

Final Thoughts:

I don’t know where this wave of exhaustion has come from , I can barely type!

An early night may be needed!

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 51 TUESDAY! 19/12/23

TL:DR What days is it !!; Restricting my punctuation & emoji use as I tagged one of my fave VI Peeps in todays post ! ; NMS is the bees pyjamas! ; Mastodon ROCKS !

Erm I made a small error in my @Maj1 salutation this morning . . . I may , just may , have suggested it was. . . .Monday again 🙄🤦♂️

Ok I fess up , I totally said it was Monday this morning - not surprisingly this caused some confusion & more than a little piss taking on my TL 🤦♂️ 😆

I would have cottoned on to this if I hadn’t spent the morning tiding my bedroom so that I could actually move without risking serious injury whilst chatting with CDP 🧚♀️ 😊 , & then the afternoon playing NMS in co-op & solo. 🤦♂️

I would like to say that I had a more productive day , but hey ho I’ve nearly completed the 2nd truncated NMS Expedition 😆

Had fun catching up this evening & am writing this while watching S1.2 of Red Dwarf 😊

Tracked down @FreakyFwoof after losing track of him (soz mate, totally forgot your handle and was searching for your given name - my bad 😞)
Thanks to @nellie_m for reminding me of his UID ! 🙏

Final Thoughts:

Today has been a good day , I got a bit frustrated this morning , but the more I understand my triggers the more I can apply some basic dampening on them .

I am so glad that I moved to Mastodon just over a year ago , this community is unique & if you land on the right Instances & meet the right folk it is a life changing experience !

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Thanks HP .

Hope you’re well my friend !

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 43 Monday 11/12/23

TL:DR My time management sucks ! ; I knew the positive streak was too good to last ! ;I’m totally focused . . “oh look , squirrel!’

Busy day today.

Up at the usual time, but mixed chatting with my bestie with a little NMS to try & get the Expedition moved fwd.
I’d like to say that I jumped to the whole ASD stuff after breakfast, but I’m back to being well enough for the game addiction to be present so lost another hour to that 🙄🤦♂️

I spent the morning fighting with the scanner to persuade it to scan the ASD Informant reports in & then collate them into the right order , came close to just chucking the thing out the window !

Spent a couple or 3 hours this afternoon playing NMS co-op , enjoyed it enormously , although did feel guilty that I had failed on concentrating on the ASD stuff left to do!

Late afternoon into this evening was spent summarising up my educational & employment history, boy have I done a lot of stuff ! I could have done without being reminded that 2012 was the last year I was able to work due to a massive MH breakdown.

A call with the elder of my sisters was a nice way to end the day.

Final Thoughts:

I rediscovered why I don’t work anymore, having fought with a mix of the technology , my stubbornness to cough up to renew our MS 365 sub. & reminders going off left right & centre for stuff I had put on a back burner for today , I was thoroughly frustrated with everything by the time my Sister rang this evening, to the point where the cats & Mrs Squirrel had vacated the immediate vicinity and various pieces of tech were in severe danger of being lobbed across the room!

I don’t do defeat, I do however work on the basis of a deadline to force me to do stuff, which then leads to frustration if stuff goes wrong!
To thoroughly misquote Yoda ,“Frustration leads to anger , anger leads to hate , hate leads to the dark side ! “

Tomorrow morning will absolutely have to be dedicated to finishing this flipping ASD Self assessment report !

I can prevaricate for England it seems !

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Emergency shout out for @FiStitchWitch

Send her lots of luvs n hugs , no questions asked !
🤗🥰

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 39 Thursday 7/12/23

TL:DR Wet; Boiler diagnostics completed; Galaxy quest rocks; Lots of love to my Bestie ! 🤗🥰

What a day, was so tired this morning that I had a quick chat with my Bestie then went back to bed for s couple of hours.

Drove over to my Mother in Laws in the pouring rain , found that I had to clean out the tiny room where the boiler lived before I could get a proper look at it!

Powered off the boiler & spent a merry 20 minutes fighting with the front cover which hadn’t been removed in years !

Got Simon our tame plumber on a video call so that he could diagnose the fault with me - turns out that the fan is dead.

Got slightly triggered when one of my MiLs’ carers rocked up, but we both had our separate jobs to do so interaction was reduced to a quick “Good Morning”.

Sorted out getting details needed for ordering the replacement fan & then had to break the news to my MiL that yon plumber could rock up next week to fit the new fan & she need to agree to that & to paying him.
An hour & a half later we finally convinced her that this was basically the only way to go.
Several triggers were hammered home & I nearly stormed out at one point when she argued that it didn’t need to be done because “I’m immune to hypothermia” , naughty words competed vigorously to be the 1st to be released upon the world, but good manners prevailed & I held them at bay!

We finally got her to agree & raced off at speed before she could change her mind !

A stop off at Costco on the way home for a much needed hot dog & a Cherry cola , followed by Xmas treat shopping helped to get my mind back into a less stressed mode !

Got home & worked with Mrs Squirrel to complete her ASD Informants report form. Thankfully she was able to fill in a lot more than my Dad did !

Bestie went to bed early again feeling rough, wish her a speedy recovery 🤗🥰

Watched ‘Galaxy Quest’ for the first time in years & enjoyed it enormously, it was interesting to see both the nods made by the movie to the space sci-fi genre & also the nods made by other later movies to Galaxy Quest.

A quick catch up on here , & sadly it was only a quick one , has led us to me writing up my diary.

Final Thoughts:
Mother in Laws like mine are the epitome of the gags made by comedians in the late 70’s !
She could be more rude (yet to receive a thank you) awkward or just plain childish if she had wanted to , thankfully she stopped just short of getting the boiler outer casing wrapped round her like a steel straitjacket !

I cannot even begin to list the triggers bounced on from a great height. I am, in retrospect , quite pleased that I recognised some of them & took appropriate steps to minimise their impact!

I may adopt the quote : “ Never give up, Never Surrender ! “ Jason Nesmith - Galaxy Quest !

Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

@RedtheBean @SilverRainbow @MaJ1 @PynkEmber @dgar Mastodon has literally saved my sanity, folks on here are tremendous!

You n me both on the lost nuts front ! (BEHAVE at the back there ! )

Enjoy this place, I do ! 😊🫶🐿️🖖

Do not seize the day!

This will startle the day and may cause it to become aggressive and give you a nasty bite! 🐊

Instead approach the day calmly without making eye contact, pet it gently, and slowly enfold it in a careful embrace.🤗

If the day shows any signs of resistance to being engaged with, it is likely to turn on you. 🏃♂️🏃♀️🦖
Back off and return to bed! 🛌

(Credit: @beecycling)
(emoji addions by @MaJ1 )

@HistoPol @actuallyautistic There are a number of reasons, it ties in with when AJJ goes to bed & it means I’m awake to chat with a close friend of a morning 😊