Notices by Tim McTuffty 🌶️🐿️ (tim_mctuffty@beige.party), page 2

@skyfire747 @HistoPol It is , one of my faves !

@HistoPol G’day HP 👋😊

Like it ! 😆

Ok let’s try this again!

I’m not addicted to Mastodon , honestly !

@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Because the Consultant suggested approaching the NAS as an additional resource the GP leapt on that as the way forward … 2 reasons why
A) it saves him doing anything
B) it saves his budget .
C) he’s a dick with very little idea about MH !

@HistoPol @androcat @actuallyautistic Currently lacking the spoons to pursue it, but I guess chasing the GP who sorted the referral for my ASD Dx will be the next step.

@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Evening HP

Thank you 🙏

The GP essentially refused to do anything & aimed me at the National Autistic Society , who are a charity & therefore cannot refer me for further tests or treatment 🙄🤦♂️

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 186 , Thursday 02/05/2024

So I’ve been feeling ruff as a bears bum for a few days now (again , you would think more regular exercise would take me the other way 🙄) so I planned to try and sleep thru to 8ish. I put in my ear plugs & set the alarm accordingly.

I was awake at 05:50 … a mix of my traitorous body responding to its Pavlovian training & the noise of herself romping round the house like baby elephant , in that considerate way she has.

So here I sit, my brain is moving at glacial speeds & my body feels like a train hit it.
At least she’s in the office today, so a day of peace & quiet!

I hate how little I am able to do at the moment , either thru illness or depression stealing my motivation.
Sometimes I wish I had a child , or a dog - they seem to be highly motivational from what I can see from the lives of others who have them.
I would be a terrible father or dog owner though , so probably best all round that I avoid both .

Oh while I’m on a roll I WISH my tinnitus would give me a break! It’s been screaming so loud in my ears for days now!

Where to go next on my ASD journey has been on my mind for a few days, the GPs completely negative reaction last time I went to see him has ripped me asunder. Where I had a set path now I flounder in indecision. I guess I have to decide if I need to be able to function better in society , or whether I just stick 2 fingers up at society & return to being a hermit.

Had a really epic FO4 session today after I finished my chores & then when Mrs S. got home we went & did our civic duty & voted - me being plagued by dizzy spells, nausea & exhaustion on the walk there and back & her being plagued by her dodgy knee ! We made a right pair, I think the thing that holds our marriage together at the moment is the need for mutual physical support , together we make a whole working person !

Caved & watched the first episode of Fallout - I’ve missed a couple of the games so I don’t know just how true it is to the earlier games, but I (& surprisingly Mrs S.) enjoyed it , so yeah, roll on ep 2 !

Final Thoughts.

Others write of monumental achievements , of beating challenges , or of coping with pain or personal circumstances that would reduce a normal person to jelly. I wish I were that strong.

I defo have EDFitis again , & it seems as though it’s gonna take its own sweet time to pass. Bummer !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Ok Peeps, I’ve been trying to get the day started for the las 2 hours - I guess I should make an effort & get my bum into gear ! Laters 😊🫶🐿️🖖

⌨️📴 Try not to break the interweb while I’m away 😁😜😁

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 180 , Friday 26/04/2024

TL:DR Walkies, stress related mankyness, Masto cake wars & FO4 . What more can one wish of a Friday ??

Up around 6am . Breakfast & then walkies. There is a stress transfer thingy going on I think - the dizziness / nausea problems associated with dealing with EDF is now being triggered by the low level anxiety associated with not wanting to walk on a buggered foot.
A mix of this, the agoraphobia & the general dislike of peopling is making getting out for a walk a pain in the bum!

Had a brilliant banter session with some good friends on here , really cheered me up!

Played the new version of FO4 for a little while , the updated graphics & general fixes are breathing new life into the game for me.

Final Thoughts.

It’s entirely possible I may be addicted to FO4 , heaven only knows how many hours I’ve put into it. I really don’t know what it is about that game that keeps me coming back.

One day I might even finish all the DLCs 😆

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Evening HP my friend , this particular mob are a lot friendlier 😆

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 129 , Tuesday 05/03/2024

TL:DR just a typical day.

Went for a walk after breakfast, just a couple of km - but quite tiring even so.

Chores done, then started a quest on ESO for some special goodies.

Checked with the Psychiatry mob about my assessment- everything is on track , I just have to be patient apparently.

I’ve been on my own for much of the day , which was so nice !

Of course there were triggers when she got back , but nothing a stiff rum couldn’t deal with.

Final Thoughts.

I want to be more active, but after last time I know I have to take it easy.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Morning all 👋

https://mastodonapp.uk/@MaJ1/112013523192601816

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 116 , Wednesday 21/02/2024

TL:DR Frustration, cheese & has beans.

A really good nights sleep last night , mostly because I stayed up till gone midnight.

Up at around 6am , usual house elf chores , make breakfast, wash dishes, clean up after her making her snacks.

ESO maintenance day today so did a little NMS stuff, being careful not to achieve any of the Omega expedition objectives (harder than one might think! ).

Caught up with a little ESO late this afternoon , just a quick mini quest for one of the guilds.

I really must get brave & start doing dungeons.

Having to use up some Lancashire cheese that she got for her mum a couple of weeks ago , forgot to take & has now left it till it’s due date is lurking on the horizon, once again it falls to me to tidy up after her - this time by upgrading my beans to cheesy beans & downgrading my weight loss.

Everything is too much trouble for her , I’m deeply frustrated & it’s starting to leak out in unhealthy ways.

Final Thoughts.

ASD / PDD is hard enough to cope with at the best of times, but when one is triggered on a regular basis in one’s supposedly safe space it is just really hard to find respite.

Adulthood suits some folk, not me, not really. I never thought that I would have to be THE adult in a family of 2 x 50+ year olds.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

@HistoPol Thank you 🙏 😊🫶🐿️🖖

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 109 , Wednesday 14/02/2024

TL:DR late night/ early morning chats; ESO rocks ! ; St Valentine vs my waistline! ; Still Hermiting but getting better every day!

Getting into the habit of a nice chat with CDP 🧚♀️ when she gets up around midnight for an hour then going to bed . Suits my circadian rhythm much better !

Up again around 6am then another quiet day - ESO to keep me occupied whilst waiting for the chest pains to finally subside . Might have a short walk Friday is the weather is not too bad .

Off to have a rare evening meal out as a special Valentines treat for each other.

Final Thoughts.

Slowly but surely getting better , both on PH & MH fronts - still very much in hermit mode but
I am getting there !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 102 , Wednesday 07/02/2024

TL:DR Sleep, games,books, toots,chats & more sleep! Oh & less pain !

Slept though the night , which was nice, just a brief loo break around midnight .

Today has been another quiet day of recovery , I think I have spent 3 out of the last 5 months recovering from something 🙄🤦♂️ .

Spent a little time on ESO , a little time on Masto , a little time chatting with my bestie,a little time reading & squeezed in a nap !

Ordered a valentines card for herself , & some catnip for the mogs - or possibly the other way round ?

Final Thoughts.

Bored with the whole resting this now that we’re past the intense pain bit - don’t get me wrong, I’m relieved that the pain is now at bearable levels , but the resting bit - not me at all!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 98 , Saturday 03/02/2024

TL:DR Restin & gamin - might take me longer than I thought to get over this latest challenge !

I have to admit to struggling a little with the whole ticker thing - I’m tired & in pain - to the extent of hitting the codeine.

Through all of this I have been supported by my friends on here !
My bestie CDP 🧚♀️🥰 has been front n centre , despite fighting her own battles - I will always be grateful to her !

We chatted a bit today & had an hour so so playing ESO together , killed a few baddies, saved a lass form Groundhog Day 😆

Had a Chinese takeaway for tea , & watched ‘The Burial’ which was a decent movie !

Final Thoughts.

Sometimes we screw up real bad, I pushed the boat out too far, against the advice of others , & literally broke, or at least bent , my heart 🙄🤦♂️

I am intensely grateful to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves

@HistoPol Why what did you do ?

Ok Peeps I have a small admission to make …
I may have overdone it the last couple of days on the exercise front & bent one of the cogs in my ticker 🙄🤦♂️
I’m fine , but getting some very definite hints that I need to rest for a couple of days !
Two steps forward & all that !
Upside, more time on here 😁

@PlaystationPixy Try to move past the fear, easier said than done I know, but remember others maybe just as fearful & it would be a shame if you met that certain someone & it all fell apart because you were both too scared to take the next step.

Remember, step by step means actually taking steps, even if they seem like steps into the dark.

Be well Cynni & I hope you find the right person who makes you want to take that next step. 😊🫶🐿️🖖