Notices by Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital), page 6
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:44:12 JST 
Owl
Just do what I do at work.
"I don't dislike you, but I don't make friends." -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:43:30 JST
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There it is. You get it. -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:38:06 JST
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>Abnormal people speak with abnormal people
And does that not mesh with what I said earlier about this being the longest interaction I have had with my instance mates, who are for the most part completely normal and functioning individuals? -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:38:05 JST
Owl
>You used to talk to us all the time
Not to my enjoyment, anybody can see that. I have difficulty with this conversation even now, as most of you are intimidating in my eyes.
>And being abnormal doesn't mean you have autism.
I am telling you, if Doc were to be tested right now despite his brilliance in specific fields of interest, he would come up positive with something at the very least.
>Sui has videos of dudes fucking toasters but nobody accuses him of autism.
Collecting videos of people having sex with kitchen appliances is not a symptom of autism! -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:38:04 JST
Owl
You genuinely could not understand that feeling even if I explained it to you. In truth it's why I don't bother with the NCD Chat, it's too much to internally process. -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:38:04 JST
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Because you're all normal. Functional. You have friends, you have family. You have places to be. -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:38:03 JST
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I never knew you guys did that.
I am being 100% serious, while some of you mention playing together I had no idea it was a huge thing. This is how much of a stranger most of you all collectively are to me. I don't know much about you guys tbh. -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:38:02 JST
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And that's a good thing, that's how you shatter the ice wall! -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:38:01 JST
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Same. And even when invited I feel like I'd be imposing.
Or that I'd be boring, or just
there are thousands of different thoughts and scenarios coursing through my mind about how I'm going to piss someone off. Which is weird considering like
that's my entire gimmick lmao. -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:38:00 JST
Owl
All I do is work and come home, sometimes with the odd date shoved in. And even that terrifies me. -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:37:59 JST
Owl
You have
ZERO reason to give up on yourself like that, on the idea of a happy life. Because you know with you it's actually possible, you've seen it, you had it in your grasp. People like me can't do that. That's not a tangible reality for me. Why would you sell yourself short? -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:37:58 JST
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I am not the most extreme, of course not. But I know what I'm capable of versus what I'm not. Why do you guys think I put so much stock in my education, in my field? It's what I'm good at, it's my function. -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:37:57 JST
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Xenophon, I'm going to be really, viscerally real with you for a second.
People aren't my lane. It's why I'm burning thousands of dollars, years upon years, to make sure I don't have to work with people if it means putting bread on the table. I do one of the most undesirable jobs, to get away from them. Because they, the way I work with them, can't say anything to me. I don't have to do the song and dance of the casual conversation with them. I don't have to worry about the minefield of giving someone leverage to pretend they are offended to manipulate me. This "I hate people" thing is not a "phase." It's the result of years of knowing how people are. I don't want to date them. I don't want to be around them. I only want to be left alone, by myself, how I can be most myself, in my own skin. That's it. -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:37:56 JST
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I do not have the gasoline in me to burn. All I can do is what I call my "function." And repeat that. The routine is comfortable; people ruin the routine with their own machinations, plans or desires. I feel like batting them away protects what I have left, you know? -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:37:55 JST
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I joke around a lot with my liberal priors in hand but
men are seen as expendable, easily so, in this society. And in your case, extremely so. I'm sorry. I really wish things were different. -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:37:54 JST
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That's how I see it. Until the house burns down or I run out of cards to play, I'm staying in this seat and playing every hand I have left. -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:37:53 JST
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I think that kind of aloneness would be empowering in a way.
Now, aside from what directly happens to you, nobody could be hurt or experience the consequences of your actions. You are at that point actually free. You could literally do whatever. -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:37:52 JST
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The only thing keeping me on the path of "sanity" and "proper behavior" is my father being under my care. After that I am a loose round. There is nothing aside from that dictating that I even act slightly responsibly. -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:37:51 JST
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I'll take care of somebody lmao.
No really, for real. That's just why I do things right. It's not just about me in this house you know? -
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Owl (owl@nicecrew.digital)'s status on Tuesday, 11-Feb-2025 19:37:50 JST
Owl
I like a drink every once in a while, a single daiquiri will do it. I'm nowhere like how I used to be, and with the SSRIs to boot.
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