Xenophon, I'm going to be really, viscerally real with you for a second.
People aren't my lane. It's why I'm burning thousands of dollars, years upon years, to make sure I don't have to work with people if it means putting bread on the table. I do one of the most undesirable jobs, to get away from them. Because they, the way I work with them, can't say anything to me. I don't have to do the song and dance of the casual conversation with them. I don't have to worry about the minefield of giving someone leverage to pretend they are offended to manipulate me. This "I hate people" thing is not a "phase." It's the result of years of knowing how people are. I don't want to date them. I don't want to be around them. I only want to be left alone, by myself, how I can be most myself, in my own skin. That's it.