"Day 5 of my search for the PostNL outlet. I can't remember the last time I saw a living being, other than my own weary face in the van's mirror. I'm starting to doubt I will ever reach my destination. Maybe this is how it ends. I've had a good life. Delivered a lot of packages. It's not the worst way to go out. To run out of fuel smack dab in the middle of the sparsely inhabited wasteland that is the Netherlands."
-- excerpt from "diaries of a package delivery driver"
@multiverseofbadness ah I see.. I have never been on myspace so I had no idea! it wasn't so big in the netherlands; we had hyves and cu2. both were very.. ugly, but in a lovable way ๐
(but they died when facebook took over, basically)
@multiverseofbadness yeah looking back it's weird to me that facebook became so popular; it's so DULL, like there's no personality to it whatsoever. it has this business vibe. ugh!
I sure hope we go back to oldskool internet permanently! with fancy personal homepages and lots of colors and styles :)
I feel kinda bad today, not sure why. I made a long city walk, now I feel bad and tired ๐ฌ But I think it probably helps later today.
Also I'm sad that my bestie can't walk. If she feels bad, she can't do mental health walkies. She needs to endure while just lying there in the dark. It's so sad and I'm so proud that she manages that shit on a daily basis.
Today, I spoke my mind in 2 different situations where I felt it was apt - which is pretty rare because I'm quite a pleaser ๐ (not sure if that's noticeable online tbh)
I'm trying to not be a pleaser anymore so that's pretty good I think..
One occasion didn't go so well, I got too emotional. The other occasion went really well. I guess both were good practice in their own way.
Now usually when I speak my mind, I feel bad afterwards; I feel guilty about it, even if it was justified. This is annoying, it might turn me off from opening my mouth the next time.
So I need to tell myself that I did well enough.. and that it's okay to make mistakes practicing.. and that that's preferable to not practicing at all. ๐๐ผ
Dutch, gamedev, electronic music producer, 80s kid! sometimes I don't follow back if you have mostly activist/politics stuff, sorry about that, I just try to evade too much of that ๐ it's not that I disagree !I'm mostly a wholesome person, but I hate self centered assholes and right wingers.Love games, complex systems, science stuffNon-binary ๐ณ๏ธ๐ used to he/him but all are fine๐ account so I can be lewd and use swear words :p so if you are very sensitive to that, fuck off ๐ฅฐ