Notices by Micah (m@autistics.life)

With the move to Portland coming up soon, I keep thinking I'd like to find an instance with more local people.

Does anyone have a good recommendation?

@hellomiakoda Aww, thank you!

I struggle a lot with self esteem, because I often still see myself like I looked 10 or 15 years ago, before I lost the weight and got pretty fit, and got the piercings, and tattoos, and grew my hair out...

Self image is weird and frustrating!

I woke up feeling like absolutely shit. I didn't sleep well, and everything feels tight and sore and weak.

I wanted to just lay there, and do nothing. But fuck that noise!

So, I'm here. I'm gonna stretch all this tightness out, and I'm going to lift and let out some of this rage!

And the inbred looking assholes that just walked past wearing maga hats make me glad I picked this shirt today.

@hellomiakoda You being a decent human make it worth it to help you

@hellomiakoda A crew is a good idea. We need to help each other through this!

@pathfinder @actuallyautistic Very well written, and moving, as I always expect from you! 🫂

I am certain I've added to the overwhelm that you and others are feeling here. I am trying to remember to use content warnings, and if I mess up please feel free to call me out for it.

My autistic need for justice, and my fear for my kids, and so many I care about (many of whom I don't know and never will) is driving a lot of rage.

I am trying to find ways to direct that in helpful ways, and not cause hurt. It is a hard balance to find, and this is all new. I'm trying though.

@BernieDoesIt @pathfinder @actuallyautistic It does, a lot!

There are so many people being hurt by a few hateful greedy people. I can't sit here silently. I have to do what I can.

Seriously guys, go get your nails done. Do bright pink if you're brave enough, or start with something more subtle if you're not. I started with black (and still do them in black frequently because I love the look).

There are lots of options too. If you don't feel comfortable painting them yourself, ask for help or go to a nail salon. If you don't like shiny (I don't) you can do them matte!

If you're worried about cracking them or messing them up, go to a salon and ask for "hard gel" and they will do a thicker coat that is really tough. (Few bucks extra usually, but well worth it. I have brittle nails, and this saves me so many broken nails!)

@hellomiakoda Yeah, I think that would be great! Meeting more autistic folks would be good too!

@hellomiakoda Look, if Oregon becomes part of Canada then I want to be part of that. March 1st!!!

@hellomiakoda Just wait at least one more month first 😂

@hellomiakoda The only Bob I can think of is Sideshow Bob from the Simpsons.

@StillIRise1963 This is common sense!

@StillIRise1963 No one is born with that hate. That is taught.

There were many in my life who tried to teach me that. There were many more white family, teachers, church leaders, etc who didn't try to teach that but accepted it, and tried very hard to make me accept it.

I don't accept it though. I refuse to hate and I refuse to accept it from others. Most importantly, I am trying very hard to teach my children and give them a better example.

I know I'm not perfect, and still have much to learn. I accept that and am willing to listen. I want that from others.

@hellomiakoda @KatyElphinstone Of course, and the same to you!!!

My need for justice is a core part of my sense of self. I could never change that, or I would not be me. That would be a death.

@hellomiakoda @KatyElphinstone Yeah, it really really is. I am really really struggling. I need justice. I need honesty. I need correctness.

Watching all of these injustices being carried out, with illogical explanations is absolutely unbearable.

Molla is pretty spry for a (almost) 17 year old cat?

@hellomiakoda @apps That would be nice!

I'd love to get off Android, and go just Linux. I'd probably have to continue to carry an Android phone for work though unfortunately.

@hellomiakoda @Cassandra I didn't know it was possible either, and now that I do... I'm a bit traumatized 😂

@Cassandra @hellomiakoda I'm not confident that that would be a successful method of making friends 😂