Notices by Joscelyn Transpiring (joscelyntransient@chaosfem.tw)

So…SDSU campus is extremely large and sprawling, and with frats and sororities on campus, and it’s all open air architecture with never-ending sunshine…oh damn, a Southern California university actually looks like all the colleges in the movies! 🤣🤣🤣

I have also heard “OH MY GAAAAWWD!” filled to the brim with vocal fry more times than I can count 🤣🤣🤣

It just hit me…I’m a girl…at uni…being cute and enjoying the shade around other students…I GET TO BE A GIRL AT UNIVERSITY FINALLY!!!!!?!?!!!!! 🤯🤯🤯

Middle aged trans girl dream come true 🥰🥰🥰

So um…what kinds of things should I do to enjoy a full college girl experience? Wrong answers only.

…well, okay, right answers would be cool too. Would love ideas for really savoring this euphoria

So…apparently the policy here is now professors are required to disclose if they use AI in assignments, course materials, etc. I guess this is good, glad they have to be transparent….but I don’t like that there are that many using it. And the graduate advisor just said “I’m sure we all rely on AI now” …um, no. What?

This is going to be a headache point for me throughout this new education experience.

At orientation for my MSW and was assigned to a table with mostly early 20-something young cis women…and realizing how much I’m not used to spending time with cishet people and surround myself with trans and queer people on a daily basis. 😅

There’s also this feeling, as I start, of struggling with feeling other or not as naturally or obviously as belonging to a group of women. I think I’ll ease into it with experience, but this might be one of the first settings where I will be in a group of women most of the time and hopefully belong.

Also realizing how cynical I’ve become as the School of Social Work leadership talks about community, altruism, ideals, etc. 😅😅😅

It’s hard to trust when people emphasize sacrifice and what we do for others, having seen that used for exploitation for 20 years. I suspect I am going to be a necessary if buzzkill voice in my program.

PSA: if a politician does awful, irrational, or ridiculous things, don’t call them clowns! Some of my best friends are clowns, I have family that are clowns…and I am a clown! 🤡🤭

It is interesting to me that I no longer want to call conservative dumbasses and fascists clowns because I know several clowns now and they are all goofy queer leftists.

@bvibber @wwu my brain is broken because every time I see “wwu” my brain substitutes “uwu”…which admittedly, is also appropriate for a group of wikimedia staff 🤣

Did you all know that high schools and universities in Southern California actually just look like what you see in Buffy the Vampire Slayer and other tv shows?

You get used to TV versions of things being completely different. Like, no Manhattan apartment looks like the apartments on Friends or other sitcoms set there. But I will never get used to these outdoor layout, tv-looking campuses here! 🤣

@erisceleste it’s exactly that kind of weird hyper-reality element. I don’t get it anywhere else in the US, even NYC! 😅

I want to scream. Social work degrees are being labeled as not “professional” under federal student aid, reducing our access to financial aid and student loans. This is despite the fact that one of the biggest groups of therapists and counselors are licensed social workers.

You know what is considered a “professional” degree? Theology. Fucking theology.

The move to replace mental healthcare with theocracy is so fucking obvious

Oh fuck, they don’t even include nursing on the professional degree list! Throughout the US, we have a shortage of nurses and mental healthcare providers. And the response is…create an even narrower bottleneck for training new nurses and providers?

The shitty self-serving cruel cat-buggery of these asshatted frog-jizzers! I don’t even know if that insult makes sense but we really gotta start getting more creative to express what needs to be said about these evil lowlifes

@mer @soatok ooo, solid argument! The boat bro has entered the running

What’s the masculine equivalent of a horse girl? (I.e. girl who really loves horses, not a girl who is an anthropomorphic horse 🤭)

I have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD).

If you have stereotypes, expectations, or assumptions about what that means, then maybe this is a chance to reconsider or change them. If you think of me as a friend, as caring or supportive, as interesting or fun, or as a community member you like, then maybe think about how just because someone has a personality disorder doesn’t mean they can’t be these things.

There’s A LOT of stigma around BPD. Many people use it as a synonym for “abusive,” which is not only wrong, but makes it pretty damn hard for people with the disorder to get mental healthcare that can help. The vast majority of people with BPD are survivors of trauma and it often is comorbid with cPTSD, disorganized attachment history, and codependency. The difference for it versus those other things that research suggests is a genetic component where our nervous systems are hypersensitive to certain kinds of things, leading to developing the disorder when exposed to trauma and intense stress.

There are also useful skills, therapies, and interventions that can help you or your loved ones with BPD. It’s still hard, but I know it’s improved my life to finally work on it and make progress on my mental health. Can it be overwhelming and hard when someone with BPD is in crisis? Of course, especially if they haven’t gotten the right kinds of help and support. But so is everyone who is in crisis. As someone who has helped people with just about every disorder and people with no diagnosable disorders when they are in a mental health crisis, it is challenging to help folks when the shit hits the fan and you have to adapt your strategies to the person and what will help them.

People with BPD are not uniquely terrible or bad or evil or abusive, and I choose to be out about having it so we can begin to challenge the stigma around this.

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPD #EndMentalHealthStigma #EndStigma

Looking for recommendations: does anyone know of any decent to good t4t romance novels?

I have two collections of erotica short stories that do have some, but I haven’t really come across any that are on the more romance side of that. But I’m sure there’s gotta be some out there, right? Bonus if it involves polyamorous folks

#trans #queer #t4t

Am I using this to power myself with spite, to overcome the doubters and naysayers and people who accurately predict things based on my past patterns? Am I weaponizing my pathological opposition to authority and others judging me to push through to the end? Am I going to be laughing at myself in a few days when i discover a disconcerting number of friends accurately predicted where my ADHD brain would sabotage me?

🤣🤣🤣

Hehe, well, I’ve at least passed the 33% complete phase of this project! Room has been successfully rearranged and a lot of cleaning done. I think we might even be at 50%.

But that’s because I’ve done all the big, obvious things and now I have to sit down and sort through boxes, clothes, etc…this may be my downfall 😅

@ami_angelwings maybe a hot take but: Angel is a toxic love interest for Buffy in Buffy the Vampire Slayer. They do a lot to make the audience want to find it romantic but let’s be clear:
1) They start dating when he is, in a sense, an old man (hundreds of years old), and Buffy is literally a child (like 16 I think?).
2) in a flashback, it’s revealed that he “fell in love” or started crushing her when he stalks her and sees her become the slayer at like 14 …so even creepier
3) He also puts her on a pedestal in a way that’s kind of toxic?

Despite this…ugh, I still enjoy it on screen if I just don’t think about it. 😅