rejection sensitivity classic: finally mustering up the courage to make a phone call to let someone know you're not coming. hanging up because it went to voicemail and you're not prepared for that. not calling again, not picking up when they call and it's past the agreed time. beating yourself up and getting nothing done for the rest of the day.
@icedquinn@blob.cat well it really just depends on whether you prefer direct application of violence (but you’re too much of a wuss for the army), or playing jenga with people’s lives
action rpg where time actually passes and influential people you were supposed to meet get really mad at you for not showing because you got caught up in side quests and forgot to call them
“well just call them then”? too bad, unless you have enough Confidence your brain only lets you stare blankly at your phone and if you do that long enough you get a panic attack and can’t do anything for the remainder of the day 🙃
might actually be a neat idea for an educational game jam thing. show neurotypicals a day in the life of someone with adhd and watch them react to half their actions being blocked for ??? reasons :neofox_3c:
@shibao@misskey.bubbletea.dev sometimes i think my homeroom teachers may have been right about the untapped potential. but i worry i might become too cool for this world :neofox_think_cool:
imagine if i did all those things. regular workouts, welding, machining, playing bass, shooting guns, chopping wood to heat my forest cabin, fabbing all kinds of electronics, cosplaying as a witch, unironically dressing like a witch
see where i’m going with this? sooner or later i’d reach the singularity. we’re not ready for a dyson sphere
lexi urged me to give janet a try, rather than zig. it’s packaged in tumbleweed; maybe i’ll actually do that. it’d be my first real encounter with a lisp-like language
@thephd@pony.social i so desperately wish for a “more civilized C” in that it loses all pretense of being “hardware-adjacent” but doesn’t encourage abstraction that makes programs hard to reason about. that, and a standard library free of unix/posix brainworms that caters to practical needs of modern software (at which point we’re also getting into syscall territory…)
it’s not just that C as a language is a cancer, it’s also that it infests and paradigm-locks almost everything else through libc