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Since I'm trying to become a bit more active again, I guess an introduction is in order again.

I'm a vaguely queer AuDHD with mental health issues on the side, mainly anxiety and depression. An ex-working person and an ex-activist/volunteer currently on disability.

After dropping off the face of the planet into a deep depression, I've started to claw myself back among the living, yet again, and recently started volunteering with ND peer support leading peer support group meetings for the local ND org. I'm hoping to build connections to my peers here too and maybe finally find some semblance of my place in the world.

Feel free to tug my virtual sleeve if need be!

#introduction #ActuallyAutistc #autism #adhd

I'm not sure if this is an autistic thing, but I'd bet it might be...

How many of you restart a game when you fail at something in it, even if you didn't have to? Or when you feel like you made a mistake or a wrong choice or whatnot. And I don't mean just loading the last convenient save, but starting anew all the way from the beginning. I do that, a lot, almost with every game (Yes, even casual ones, I restarted the original Life Is Strange I don't know how many times... You can imagine what a chore it was to get through XCOM, which is one of my favorite series). So instead of playing like 20 hours, I spend easily 80 hours going though the game. Provided that I ever actually finish it.

Now, here's the kicker... Ready for it? Does that apply to other things in your life too? I just realized today, that for me it does. I get into something, something ungood happens, I drop it, get rid of my "save game" (that is, whatever I have acquired, tangible or intangible for said thing), then take it up again some time later, start from an empty table, other than the experience from the previous try, maybe get a bit further, something happens...

I've done it with trivial things, like learning a new language. Today I realized I've been doing it with something fundamental about myself. And oh my that realization sucks. Unlike my game characters, I don't... I can't start a new game with the game world, or myself, in the same state every time, neatly rolled back in time. For me, a month, or a yeah, or a decade has passed. It is very ungood. I wanna restart and try again.

@actuallyautistic #ActuallyAutistic

Hyvä neuvo, olla toisille pieni Kinder :meow_giggle: