During this nightmare illness(es) I wrote notes to my future self to remember I am immunocompromised and take it seriously. As I feel better I notice I want to forget the whole thing and just act normal again. Sick me begs and pleads for healthy me to mask up and avoid exposure; healthy me doesn’t know what sick me is talking about, I’m fine.
It reminds me of “Severance,” having two states of mind so disconnected they might as well be different selves.
@mittimithai They're new compared to whatever nailed me all of March. I assume I picked up a new virus at the Seder I attended last Sunday which was full of toddlers (apparently no one else got sick or at least had symptoms). This is just my immune system collapsing, telling me to choose a hermetic future or early death. Good thing I mostly hate people, but I still miss them sometimes.
Embed this noticeNina Paley (ninapaley@spinster.xyz)'s status on Tuesday, 25-Mar-2025 22:55:11 JST
Nina PaleyI went to “Convenient Care” Sunday night because my cough (of 3 weeks so far) worsened and my temperature rose. I don’t have Covid, Flu, or pneumonia (at least not that shows on a chest X-ray, my first ever) but decided after that to take it as easy as possible until I recover more solidly. I had a vet appointment for my cat Lola this morning, and a friend to give me a ride, but just canceled it after some weighing of options. Lola's doing okay and I'm going to keep RESTING instead of doing more stressful shit.
I feel good about my decision. I'm going to spend today in bed or on the sofa binge-watching season 2 of "Severance" (finished Season 1 last night). And I'm gonna keep resting and binge-watching until I'm more stable. Because getting sicker Sunday sucked ass and frightened me, and if I'm meant to be sick for an unreasonably long time, so be it. I surrender.
@FeartnTired It absolutely sucks to have Crohn's Disease which I developed post-Covid. However, other people developed CRAPs (Covid-Reactive Autoimmune Pathologies) that are thus-far undiagnosable and more mysterious, and get lumped into "Long Covid" which is considered mythical by many. I feel fortunate that my CRAP has a name and treatment and garners me lots of sympathy while others receive blame and contempt, insult added to injury.
The world of animation and film I came up in and competed in and won in, is no more. All these awards I have in my cabinet are from a world that no longer exists.
Embed this noticeNina Paley (ninapaley@spinster.xyz)'s status on Thursday, 20-Feb-2025 01:13:50 JST
Nina PaleyUSAID seems to be rife with corruption and long overdue for an audit AND despite that, some of its projects are worthy and crucial AND smashing everything immediately is causing more damage than an orderly audit and paring-down AND the latter may not have been possible, hence extreme measures AND it's still causing harm AND what a mess
@polarisera It's not all cushy jobs. There are doctors and nurses and construction workers and well-diggers and so on. I don't know if a "right" solution was possible. It's all trade-offs. But it is a mess. Such is the problem with any endemic corruption.
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