Notices by goatsarah (goatsarah@thegoatery.dyndns.org)

This blows my mind. My sleep data from Apple Health over the last 6 months.

The green line marks the point I started amphetamines. It doesn’t make a lot of difference.

The red line: I read Sisters of Dorley

@christineburns since this bullshit started, I have basically started ensuring I piss in as many female toilets as I can while I’m in the UK. Make a point of it. It’s doing wonders for my hydration.

They can get to fuck. All of them.

I’ve been struggling with my HRT levels for a while after finding out I was effectively menopausal earlier this year. I noticed this by my FSH being high. Since then I switched from pills to gel and it got me back into the non menopausal range, but only just.

I know this because I’ve been having regular blood tests. My metabolism is quite fast and clears stuff from my system quickly, so the longer release of gel (it builds a reservoir in the fat) works for me.

Anyway, since starting lisdexamfetamine for ADHD, I’ve checked my FSH using urine tears and it got a lot lower still. I figured it was somehow calming down my liver and letting the oestrogen last longer in the body.

Got a new blood test result yesterday. FSH is now MUCH lower, which is good.

But it’s not from oestrogen.

It’s from TESTOSTERONE!

Elvanse seems to have kicked my adrenal glands up a notch. I guess this makes sense. It is a stimulant. It’s taken my T from the very bottom of the female range to the middle of it. Impressive, given I have no ovaries (in cis women, testosterone comes from both the ovaries and adrenals).

Explains why my sex drive has been a bit higher of late, I guess.

@marlies It is cool how we're responding differently to this. @zoe started Elvanse at the same time I did and she's reporting a similar experience to mine.

Perhaps my subconscious is trustworthy, but it is freaking me out that I'm not constantly scanning ... everything, automatically.

Noticed when driving on Elvanse that I have to actively scan for hazards which I just knew about before.

This is making me be super careful when driving.

For those who don’t have ADHD, it’s really badly named. We don’t have an attention deficit at all. We just can’t control what it’s focusing on for long.

Basically our brains are constantly processing the entire input stream from our environment. All of it. You have no idea how utterly overwhelming this is until it switches off for the first time.

And then there’s a moment of clarity, before which you were listening to every radio station in the world simultaneously and always have been.

And now you’re just listening to one.

But with driving, I think that was actually making me a safer driver because it’s hard to become target fixated when your neurology basically can’t do that.

Something for me to be aware of. Now I have to choose to scan for hazards.

Or drive unmedicated.

Apparently if you’re a pilot with ADHD, your medical requires you to fly unmedicated. I now understand why.