Notices by goatsarah (goatsarah@thegoatery.dyndns.org), page 2

@Lazarou I remember the final epic showdown of Peter Hamilton’s Salvation trilogy where they literally fling a neutron star at the bad guys.

And one of them comments, “well THIS is going to confuse a radio astronomer in a distant galaxy in a few million years”

It’s really starting to hit me now. All those years I wasn’t lazy. I wasn’t deliberately obstructive. I wasn’t thoughtless. I wasn’t careless. I wasn’t a deliberate arsehole.

My neurology literally wouldn’t let me slow down, do stuff, talk quieter, not interrupt, not go from 0 to “temper tantrum” in 2 seconds, remember where I put the thing I was holding 1 second ago. Not want to end people for talking too slowly.

One pill fixes it all. One sodding pill.

51 years.

There’s more grieving to come here, I think. A lot more.

And no, everyone is NOT “a little bit ADHD”. You have no bloody idea.

First few days on Elvanse and wow! This stuff is honestly astonishing.

If you’re seeing this on Bluesky it’s auto cross posted from fedi. Breaks might be in odd places.

It’s essentially created two versions of me. There is medicated me who is a competent adult and can Just Do Stuff and unmedicated me who is mot, and cannot (but who is fun and lovely and is the version writing this).

On the way up the transition between the two is smooth and continuous.

On the way down it is not. I can feel it starting to fade over above half and hour then it reaches some critical level and o spend 10-15 minutes just crashing.

And then I’m the person writing this again, but a bit dazed and bewildered.

I’m hoping this will get smoother. At the moment it leads to almost a discontinuity in personality, but only on the way down, where afterwards I simply cannot conceive of being the person I just was.

I think I need to get into the habit, before it wears off, of leaving myself something nice for just after the crash.

Elvanse!

NO FUCKING WAY!

I had radiotherapy from someone who turned out to be a TERF.

That still gives me shivers sometimes.
RE: mastodon.social/users/fesshole…

@sabik anyone reading this, THAT WAS SARCASM.

NEVER MIX ACID AND BLEACH. YOU WILL DIE.

Searching for hydrochloric acid on amazon.

It offers me sodium hypochlorite.

Fuck's actual sake