Notices by goatsarah (goatsarah@thegoatery.dyndns.org), page 3

I honestly never dreamed my life would go in the direction of having to manage the duality of being a functional adult who can do adult things in the daytime and is sensible and all that stuff, and a chaos goblin by the evening.

The transition I saw coming from a long time before, if I’m being honest. But while neurodivergence was always obvious to anyone who met me, finally getting the actual answer and following it through to Planet Amphetamine and all that implies has blindsided me a bit.

These drugs are very very weird to be on.

But they may have saved my life.

Having my first day off Elvanse.

Plan is all about self care. Avoid stressful stuff. If there is ANY hint of pushback against anything that needs doing, then I will make it a problem for future Sarah.

I feel like there’s a lot of reverse ableism with people telling me that the REAL problem with ADHD is that I am “traumatised” by a world that isn’t adapted to my needs and that were it not for this “trauma”, I would be able to function just fine.

If it’s trauma, why does a single pill that raises my dopamine levels switch it off like a light switch and turn me into an emotionally stable adult with executive function?

@Akki Perhaps you are, you know, for the duration of the consultation, misremembering.

Like how we misremember to take our HRT dose before a blood test.

So forgetful.

@kincaid Laundry pile is smaller.

Look, I've seriously been STARVING my entire life. A biscuit is a banquet.

@kincaid Update: yeah. Ok. Fair enough.

The novelty of ANY hit at all was quite a thing at first. Now I appreciate your point.