Notices by taedryn 🏳️‍⚧️ (taedryn@dice.camp), page 3

An alternate view today. I celebrated one year being out as trans recently, and several people got me flowers. It makes for a very pleasant spot to read and eat.

@roadriverrail Grey is, quite simply, the best color. I like it, you look great!

Surprise euphoria day after I caught an unexpected glimpse of myself in the mirror and really liked what I saw. Went shopping for party supplies, and nearly started crying with happiness as I spent $12 on Girl Scout cookies, thinking about them allowing young trans girls in. Here's hoping this won't lead to a crash, but it's pretty awesome for the moment.

My nearly successful attempt to capture the view that was so pleasing to me.

@roadriverrail and I want to know: what is this style of sweater called, with the criss-crossing collar? CW for eye contact.

@roadriverrail I got it at Goodwill, so I can't be much help there. I am 100% sure it was made in China, so looking at some of the Chinese fast fashion (ptui) sites would be a good place to start. The one I've heard of is Shein or something like that. Search on sweaters. I was very impressed with Dresslily (dresslily.com) for some dresses I got recently, they were cheap and arrived quickly, but they're solidly low-class fast-fashion quality.

@roadriverrail I have not had the experience of wondering who that woman was in the window, but I hope to at some point.

I'm liking this outfit, but it feels pretty normal to me. It's interesting that so many people are commenting positively on it. Maybe my normal taste is more generally pleasing than I thought. ? The sweater is new, this is my first time wearing it.

I finally got myself a full-length mirror in my room. Why did I wait so long to do this? So cool. CW for eye contact.

Interesting thing about this: with a new mirror in a new location, I'm seeing myself in a context I've never seen myself in before. In this new context, which only existed starting last night, I've always known that I was trans. I've always known that my body didn't particularly match how I felt inside.

And when I spotted myself in the mirror this morning, before I took this picture, I saw myself not as a man deluding himself, but as a woman with an unconventional body.

Didn't expect that.

Remember the good ol' days of the bathroom bills, and how a bunch of companies just pulled out of states that enacted them?

Where is that support now? Where are the companies voting with their dollars to remove support from hatred? Maybe they're out there, but I have heard only crickets, as women/queer/trans hate laws ramp up at a shocking rate.

@MousyAesthete now if only the allies would learn as quickly.

Occasionally it hits me just how profoundly I had to hide myself from myself to make it almost 50 years thinking I was actually male.

I was trying on a dress in Goodwill tonight after getting my hella-gay new earrings put in (picture pending). A couple hadn't fitted so well, so I was kind of expecting this one to also not fit. As I tugged it on, it was tight (which is good), and I had to shimmy a bit to get it over my hips.

Then, it slipped onto my waist, and everything got easier.

And my brain almost went pop.

I have hips.
And a waist.
That a dress fit snugly over.

I didn't cry, but I kinda am now.

#trans #genderEuphoria

Sometimes, one must continue the salad action simply because it's time. I'd rather have warm food today, but I know I'll be happy once I've actually eaten my salad.

I was talking to a trans friend today, and said the word "crackiversary" out loud, and she looked at me like I was bonkers. What's your preferred name for the date when your egg cracked (if that's relevant to your #trans experience)?

Well this at least is some good news. Thanks to @JayHPharmD for the link.

In summary, Wyoming successfully blocked a trans youth healthcare ban, the first in a Republican state. It is possible.

https://erininthemorn.substack.com/p/trans-activists-score-major-victory

Among other things, today is also a salad day. Celebrate the salad, love the salad, be the salad. Toss the salad, of course, but in this case we're talking about a literal actual salad, not some slang jargon.

@roadriverrail Fair point, bad habits can be hard to break. I hope you're able to get to where you want to be, though. :heart_transgender:

@roadriverrail And the main thing about not straining your voice is to not strain your voice. I'm not trying to be obtuse, I just mean that if it hurts or feels like a stretch, don't do it, and you'll avoid problems.

Hey #trans friends, are you thinking about your voice a lot like I am? I have a recommendation for you.

Go listen to the Gender Reveal podcast, (just generally, but also) specifically ep 141 from about a month ago. Tuck interviews Renee Yoxon, and they're just talking about voice stuff. I'm not even halfway through yet, and it's good stuff. Like, the podcast is great, but this ep in particular will be very interesting.