Notices by Cum Vampire (divinekestrel@chaosfem.tw), page 2

What's a girl gotta do to get her ass spanked around here?

Them: "Technical interview"

Reality: "Studying my own code for an entire fucking week to make sure I have every possible nuance at the top of my mind for a one hour coding trivia contest."

It’s just crazy. I managed senior developers, built whole development teams in the federally regulated aviation sector.

But yes, let me get hazed to prove I’m good enough to join your fucking boy's club.

@EmilyGB2023 when I was managing I had a pretty strict "You touch it, you refactor it" rule, that had to (because… sigh) be combined with a "No new duplicate functionality" rule to prevent people from just writing something else and implicitly orphaning the other one causing weird divergences… which was another thing I had to clean up. @storybead @bridget

I need to get the fuck out of tech. Fuck these people.

@EmilyGB2023 @bridget Those are the skills that make me keep getting promoted to the leader of the team. I'm good enough at programming, I'm fucking amazing at team building and project success.

But… prove you're cool or don't get through the door.

My plan is to not clean my purse, long enough that it will grow and become self-aware and then it will just want to clean itself

I'm shoving a needle full of estrogen into my leg.

You're shoving a dick full of cum into my vagina.

We are not the same!!

This post was totally not created by the Russian disinformation machine. я обещаю

There are a few feelings better and more freeing than a dangerously short sundress and a very breezy day.

The Open Graph specification has a og:type property that includes profile as a type. That type has a gender tag.

It is enum(male, female)

Yeah, I might just submit a PR for this because it's bullshit.

@tillshadeisgone That site closed down, sadly. I might have a copy around somewhere. Honestly, I should re-write and re-publish it at this point.

@tillshadeisgone Like a decade or so ago, I published an essay that built on a James Baldwin statement that America has never reconciled itself properly and that racism will hurt white people in ways they can't even imagine. I said you could already see how it was happening in the laws, policing, etc. White America's need to hold onto racism even at the cost of itself is a wild thing to watch.

But it's even more wild to see white queer people look directly at that, and then do the same thing. It's like they are literally looking at the problem, and describing the problem, and still saying "Nah, that's not this problem tho. Totally different."

#SMDH

Me, two years ago: "I'm a totally normal cis dude who just published another heavily researched essay on race, class, and misogyny in an international news outlet."

Me, today: "I'm a big tittied broad who just wants to suck the cum out of a chic's girlstraw while another fucks my pussy from behind with a strap-on dildo shaped like a dragon's dick."

And they said bimboification was not a real thing.

Working on my post-dystopian novel and keep thinking about other writers I know who target wordcounts. I could never. It makes me feel stupid for how sparse my writing is.

Decades of writing essays and plays and very short stories have made me so familiar with cut cut cut. Cut to the bone.

Hell, with plays, every single word has to drive tension, drive the character toward what they want. There's no descriptions of the walls. It's minimalist dialog and that's it. Even essays where I describe things, it's minimize, minimize. Cut cut cut.

I think "The purposes of this chapter are A, B, and C, and I have to introduce G and H for later." Then 750 words later I've accomplished all of that. And everything about writing novels is "Shoot for 2000-5000 words per chapter." What the fuck am I going to write about for 5000 words? That's like a book in itself! I can fit 3-4 chapters in that!

I feel like such an imposter.

@miriamrobern So, an interesting thing I've found, especially in Sci Fi/Fantasy, is that publishers look at word counts. Multiple publishers I've heard from said that a Sci Fi/Fantasy book needs a certain word count because they put the same amount of money into bigger books as smaller books, so bigger books are worth more. And readers will pick up a bigger book before they will a smaller book that costs the same because then they feel like they're getting their money's worth.

It's fucking capitalism destroying everything. It's not about the story, it's not about the writing, it's not about the breath and voice of the words. I's volume. Content. I hate it.

One publisher actually said "Ursula K. Le Guin would never get published today."

Think about that.

The reality is that if the Republicans take over, things won't be that bad for non-target populations. And, from the perspective of non-target populations, things won't look that bad for target populations.

America can just keep doing things the way it always has. Structural oppression, roadblocks, gatekeeping, policing, judicial oppression, etc.

Camps would be obvious and easy to fight. Instead look to both Jim Crow and the post-Jim Crow War on Drugs era to see how it could work.

They're already doing that with women's rights and LGBTQ+ rights. It's not a full out ban… that's stated explicitly in their guidance documents. It's not about making us illegal, it's a series of byzantine rules and laws disconnected across the country to make it extremely difficult and confusing. That's an option you can't fight against directly. But it's an option that keeps US fighting just to survive. That's their strategy.

Honestly, if more queer people read writing from BIPOC liberation movements, we would be better prepared for how to fight this. Because it's not going to be "They set up camps." It's going to be "We're slowly becoming less employable with harder laws and a quiet deconstruction of civil rights protections."

Which is EXACTLY how the US has been oppressing BIPOC people for 400 years. We know how to exist and thrive under that oppression because we ARE the survivorship bias.

This is why the underlying thread of racism within the Queer community is just as dangerous to it as the broader realities of racism have been to American Democracy as a whole. Far too many privileged white Queer people have a complete ignorance of BIPOC struggle. A disconnection from BIPOC communities, literature, history. But there are generations of our struggle that could be cooperative.

Growing up, I had no safety. My mom was definitely not safe, my house was not safe, my family was not safe. My friends were not safe. School was not safe. I had no safety anywhere except one place: Delaware Park. It is a large park in Buffalo designed by Frederick Law Olmstead, and it is the only friend that I ever had when I lived here.

Today I got to visit Delaware Park and sit by Hoyt Lake under the same willow tree that I used to escape to alone to write to cry to just be me. I got to sit there for a couple hours as myself, and it was glorious.

When I left, I turned around and looked at the park and cried as I said "this is what you gave me: myself. I am here as me because you helped me survive. Thank you my friend"

The minute these motherfuckers ask some stupid shit like "what made you decide to become a woman" is the minute the lessons start cause I ain't taking that shit.

You're asking the wrong question. What made YOU decide to be a woman?

I didn't decide to be a woman. Wrong question. But you don't want to ask the RIGHT question: what made me decide to pretend for so long that I was a boy?

Because the answer to that is "your wretched bigotry."