Notices by Tim McTuffty (tim_mctuffty@beige.party)

@HistoPol Thanks HP 😊

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 452 , Wednesday 22/01/2025

Wednesday was utterly dull & ‘orrible weather wise, although it did perk up for a few hours this afternoon which was nice.

A very frustrating day today, firstly my ADHD assessment provisional booking was cancelled. Then when I tried to get on the providers site, to book a new date, my password had expired - it took 3 reset attempts & lots of swearing to persuade the thing to work!!

Then, because of the delay I missed all the slots for ADHD assessments until April! Now rebooked for April 10th 🙄🤦♂️

I really, really don’t handle frustration well at the moment! Such a trivial thing & it drove me nuts!

We did manage to catch another energy saving session this evening so that was good - getting into the swing of it now, I know what to turn off & we have candles on standby.

It gave me a chance to catch up on here which was good.

Final Thoughts.

The little problems of earlier today have really messed my day up to an extent that seems unreasonable to me. Now every little trigger has me super frustrated.

I could really have done with my therapist being around this week, but I have to manage until the 4th when hopefully she will be back off sick leave.

Hopefully some sleep tonight will help, tomorrow is a new day!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Hey HP 👋😊

Mrs S knows nothing! 😆

T BH I joined because it was billed as an alternative to xitter, I stayed because of all the fantastic peeps I met on here!!

Have the best day my friend!

😊🫶🐿️🖖

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 450 , Monday 20/01/2025

Monday started 2 minutes before the alarm went off at 8am.
It has been a dull & cold day, snow was threatened by my weather app but it never appeared.

I got a form to fill in from the Peeps who are supposed to be doing my ADHD assessment (no date for that yet) not sure if its an indication of things starting to happen or if they’re just checking I’m still alive!

Mrs S was out at her Mums for most of the day so peace reigned & after I finished my chores I hit the PS5 & played DD2 for a decent chunk of time, really enjoying it now - have mastered my first vocation (Mage), only 9 more to go!

We had a nuked spaghetti thing for tea - which tasted quite floury.

Finished the day watching Sue Perkins romping around Strasbourg, I do like a bit of old Sue, she makes me smile. 😊

Final Thoughts.

So deleted my FB a/c today, while I haven’t really used it for years it is a bit of a shame to have to leave it because off Zuckerberg making it a platform for the fascists. Hey ho there is a massively better quality of Peep right here in the Fediverse!
I have never enjoyed a SM platform as much as I have the Fediverse & all you wonderful folk!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@HistoPol @evelynefoerster @altbot Evening HP 👋😊

That’s so not my good side! 😆

Thanks to @kim_harding for sharing & your good self for tagging me in!

😊🫶🐿️🖖

@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Hey HP 👋😊

Thank you 🙏

Hope you had a good Halloween too! 😊

@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Hey HP 👋😊

Thanks! I’ll try my best!

Hope you’re well & having a good week so far my friend 😊🫶🐿️🖖

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 367 , Tuesday 29/10/2024

Tuesday was a quiet day, up late again thanks to the new meds, I’m slowly getting over the side effects, ,y brain is working better but they still make me really sleepy!

Yon gaming Pixy asked for some help with NMS this morning so we had a quick hour & made some decent progress. I put a bit more time in this afternoon after I finished the chores & managed to finish the expedition! I haven’t returned to the main save yet so that I can stick around & help Mel & yon Pixy.

Also completed the FO76 season. So now I can go back to a more relaxed gaming schedule.

More Supernatural tonight ,we’re getting near the end now!

Final Thoughts.

Sometimes life throws you a curve ball & your view of the world changes. Sometimes assumptions you have about people are just wrong. Sometimes all you can do with a problem is knuckle down & bear the load.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 341 , Thursday 03/10/2024

09:17 Once again before the morning has barely begun I’m drained to the point of uselessness. Cleaning up after others is soul destroying I don’t know how parents cope!
Tell you one thing tho gout is a powerful deterrent from turning to drink! The thought of my foot blowing up to twice its size & the pain levels it causes will keep me with the recommended limits for life.

I’ve gotta go get my covid & flu jabs in a little while. The next few days will be uncomfortable as I get past the side effects.
Heck first time I’ve had the jab outside a GPs surgery so many people in such a small space!
All these forms!

GP again next time!

I txted the plumber to book the annual service for the CH boiler while I was waiting to be stabbed & he called me just as I got home to say he had had a cancellation & was this afternoon ok!
So I went into mild panic mode to make sure that everything was ready for him.
Out boiler is a 13 year old Valiant that is still going strong (touch wood!) but it did need some extra TLC this time so he’s back Monday with parts & a bill that made Mrs S blanche!

I went wild & tried an alt PSU on the CCTV cameras that were playing up - it is a PSU issue, so tomorrow or more likely when I’ve recovered from the Covid jab side effects, I’ll finish the job & tidy the cables etc.

Final Thoughts.

We’re on the depression rollercoaster again, one day I may be able to get off for good.

I have been triggered something rotten today, all the usual home stuff, the people issues while getting my jab & then the unexpected extra work required on the boiler. I came very close to one of the more extreme forms of coping strategy today but have been saved by a last minute donut!

Closing in on a year of blogging, who’d a thunk.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@HistoPol @si_irini @actuallyautistic It was more a longing to be over there in person my friend, will probably get to see them for my birthday.

@HistoPol @si_irini @actuallyautistic G’day HP 👋😊

Social contact initiation is super difficult for me, even with family - which they know so they ignore me anyway.

Hey ho.

Hope you’re having a super Saturday my friend 😊🫶🐿️🖖

@si_irini @actuallyautistic Thank you Irini, that is a lovely thought 🤗🥰

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 320 , Thursday 12/09/2024

02:00 Referee! Come on now this is no longer funny!
I finally fell asleep around 22:30 so why for the love of Nuggan am I awake!
Just had a horrible nightmare where I was chased down by a Dobermann a la the Bond movie ‘Moonraker’!
Gimme a cat any day, they’re far more likely to want snuggles & scritches!

I think I may have done more damage to my knee than I originally thought, the knee cap is very tender to the touch, there is a massive bruise & although I can weight bear & walk ok on the flat climbing stairs there seems to be some weakness, I guess I’ll have to go see the Quack if it persists.

Why can I not sleep!?

02:47 Just thinking about the ADHD self referral form I finally completed today, I’m not sure I want to know … I’m tired of being broken, of having to mask to be seen as normal. I’m really not sure that even if diagnosed there will be any additional help forthcoming from the critically broken NHS! Ignorance is bliss apparently.

02:57 It’s at times like this that I would love to be back with my family, I rarely get lonely & can generally cope with being ignored by the world in general & family specifically. Indeed I often crave isolation, peopling is so very hard at times. However tonight I have a desperate need to hug my niece, to laugh with my brother & sister, to be a part of something that I have long been simply an almost wholly severed limb of. Sadly not possible, they will all be asleep & even if they were awake they have their own busy lives with little time for their ‘weird’ relative.
So I will roll over in my little single bed, hug my pillow & chase sleep until it is time to mask up again & go make breakfast & do chores.

03:55 Still awake bläh! Too tired & too frazzled to do SM or even read, too awake to sleep! I hate this!

06:00 I did get about another hour but now it’s time to getup & get breakfast.

A fairly quiet day , a surprise call form Conner (the OT) which went really well.

Then cleaned the bath (it’s one with jets - like a jacuzzi - so periodically needs its innards rinsing out & disinfecting.
Bizarrely enough, because it takes about a week to fill, & me & Mrs S prefer showers anyway, it has been cleaned way more times this year than it has actually been used in anger!

So not a bad effort given that I’m running on very little sleep again!

Really could not concentrate on anything this afternoon.

Salad with Cheese & mushroom quiche for tea - it’s pizza day tomorrow so something to look forward to!

Final Thoughts.

I’m keeping my head above the water, just , at the moment but I could do with a decent stretch of sleep!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Morning HP 👋😊

Thank you 🙏 😊

Hope you have a goo d day today my friend 😊🫶🐿️🖖

I posted this on my alt a/c last night due to senior moment, so just copying it here for completeness.

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 289 , Monday 12/08/2024

Mrs S. is on holiday all this week , it’s our wedding anniversary today & she normally takes time off around this time of year.

I got to have a lie in this morning & crawled out of my pit around 07:30

Sorted breakfast, & gave Mrs S. her card & pressy.

We watched an episode of ‘Father Brown over breakfast & then I got washed & shaved to go out.

We went to York for Afternoon Tea at Bettys Tea Rooms , a favourite for both of us, the food, service & atmosphere are all excellent.

It rained all the way to York, but the sun came out as we parked up & then it stayed dry for the rest of the day which was a blessing.

We had a delicious mix of sandwiches & cakes - normally I would have gone with a 2nd helping of sarnies (& Mrs S did) but I was aware that Geoff might object so limited myself to one serving of everything. TBH I was still nicely full at the end of the meal!

The staff gave us some treats by way of gifts to celebrate our anniversary which was lovely !

We did some shopping on the way back to the car & I earned major brownie points by getting Mrs S a big bouquet of flowers (she loves getting flowers! ). I got some new socks & PJs 😆

The journey home was mostly uneventful , the only notable event was a young lady with ‘L’ plates still attached (dunno if they were hers) who merrily undertook us (we were in lane 2) & the car in front of us then shot across into the ‘fast’ lane - I hope that she gets a lesson in why thats really shitty driving sometime soon!

We moved on with our Tolkien fest once we got home & had sorted ourselves out & finished the evening with a glass of sparking rosé & a small individual quiche each that we got from Bettys shop.

Final Thoughts.

Not a bad day at all. Sun , good food & a movie , what more could you ask for ?

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Good evening HP 🤗🥰

I hope they did.

I hope that you are enjoying the first day of your weekend my friend.

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 252 , Saturday 06/07/2024

Got a rare Saturday lie in today, Mrs S. went shopping yesterday so we were spared the stupid o’clock wake up call.

Chatted with CCDP 🧚♀️ , we touch base every day , she is a good , dear friend.

Another friend needed someone to vent to today, I tried my best, I hope it helped. I tend to not know how far to go & what to say. I hope that they felt the love & support I was trying to convey to them.

Spent the afternoon clearing down one of the 2 DVRs we run. It’s getting old now & I fear the HDD in it is not long for this world. I will repurpose it as a blu-ray play in my room once we have totally cleared the recordings.

Watched ‘Upgrade’ a story of AI loose in the wild - I wonder if future generations will look at this movie in the same way we look at the tech from Star Trek:TOS .

Final Thoughts.

I realised that a weight had been lifted with the change of government, the Rwanda policy is dead in the water & we now have a party in power who , at last n the face of it , are not hell bent on us being a one party state.
Time will tell if the new incumbents are true to their word but at least we know that that possibility exists!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

@bmacDonald94 @PeggyStuart I will not stand in your way, best of luck.

In 10 years time let’s see where we are.

@PeggyStuart @bmacDonald94 Won’t happen, vested interests won’t let it, too many people enjoy the benefits 🙄🤦♂️

@HistoPol @flexghost @noondlyt @mina Morning HP 👋😊

Doesn’t ring any bells my friend , sorry.

Maybe @Rasta knows it ?