@bmacDonald94 @PeggyStuart I will not stand in your way, best of luck.
In 10 years time let’s see where we are.
@bmacDonald94 @PeggyStuart I will not stand in your way, best of luck.
In 10 years time let’s see where we are.
@PeggyStuart @bmacDonald94 Won’t happen, vested interests won’t let it, too many people enjoy the benefits 🙄🤦♂️
@HistoPol @flexghost @noondlyt @mina Morning HP 👋😊
Doesn’t ring any bells my friend , sorry.
Maybe @Rasta knows it ?
Ok Peeps , off to try & climb the staircase on crutches for the 1st time in a number of years !
If you hear a bang you’ll know I only nearly made it !
⌨️📴 Try not to break the interweb while I’m away 😁😜😁
@DoubleTreble @actuallyautistic Thank you 🙏 🤗🥰
I try my best to cheer folk up , I’m glad it helps those who mean a lot to me 🤗🥰
@DoubleTreble @actuallyautistic Hey DT 🤗🥰
Bummer !!
Tryin my best sweetie , tryin my best ..
Here take one of these to encourage you ! 🤗🥰
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 213 , Tuesday 28/05/2024
Up at 6m as Mrs S. was back in work today.
Another day of fighting the agoraphobia & losing . The spectre of the world beyond the front door playing havoc with my mind.
Watching others sally forth, both in analog & digital life makes me realise how far I have to go to get better.
I would go to the GP, but the whole thing over the ADHD assessment has badly shaken my trust in them.
Also I am so very aware of the state of the NHS & I feel that I cannot deny other, more worthy souls their opportunity to get medical help.
So chores are done and now I roam the countryside around Boston in the virtual world of Fo4.
I was analysing my current play style & I am being so very logical about it - for no reason. I need to relax & play the game as I encounter it, instead of maximising companion potential or trying to do stuff in a set order.
Got a new stand for the iPad today , gotta get used to the new layout - it’s more comfortable if a little odd at the moment.
Final Thoughts.
Sometimes my autistic nature makes me miss communication cues. I fail to respond in the way folk expect , sometimes say things innocently that are misinterpreted because there are certain rules that I either don’t know or don’t understand.
I am kind by nature & like to see the best in people, I like to compliment folk, often the old adage ‘it’s nice to be nice’ comes into play.
Sometimes I do not recognise the unseen, unspoken edges of what is acceptable, people have blocked me before today for being too familiar too soon.This upsets me a great deal when it happens. Thankfully it has not happened since I got my diagnosis.
Now I know I am autistic I take steps to try & avoid the more obvious pit falls , but sometimes I forget or get a little over enthusiastic & folk bring me up short. Then I back away & something is lost.
I had hoped that my GP would help me find the help I need but they seem disinterested. For now I am on my own.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
@MaJ1 @Kierkegaanks Here you go - enjoy !
Douglas Adams' Train Station Biscuits Story (or What It Is To Be British)
This actually did happen to a real person, and the real person was me. I had gone to catch a train. This was April 1976, in Cambridge, U.K. I was a bit early for the train.
I'd gotten the time of the train wrong. I went to get myself a newspaper to do the crossword, and a cup of coffee and a packet of biscuits I went and sat at a table.
I want you to picture the scene. It's very important that you get this very clear in your mind. Here's the table, newspaper, cup of coffee and packet of biscuits.
There's a guy sitting opposite me, perfectly ordinary-looking guy wearing a business suit, carrying a briefcase.
It didn't look like he was going to do anything weird.
What he did was this: he suddenly leaned across, picked up the packet of biscuits, tore it open, took one out, and ate it.
Now this, I have to say, is the sort of thing the British are very bad at dealing with.
There's nothing in our background, upbringing, or education that teaches you how to deal with someone who in broad daylight has just stolen your biscuits.
You know what would happen if this had been South Central Los Angeles. There would have very quickly been gunfire, helicopters coming in, CNN, you know...
But in the end, I did what any red-blooded Englishman would do: I ignored it. And I stared at the newspaper, took a sip of coffee, tried to do a clue in the newspaper, couldn't do anything, and thought, what am I going to do?
In the end I thought, Nothing for it, l'll just have to go for it, and I tried very hard not to notice the fact that the packet was already mysteriously opened.
I took out a biscuit for myself. I thought, That settled him. But it hadn't because a moment or two later he did it again. He took another biscuit.
Having not mentioned it the first time, it was somehow even harder to raise the subject the second time around. "Excuse me, I couldn't help but notice..." I mean, it doesn't really work.
We went through the whole packet like this.
When I say the whole packet, I mean there were only about eight biscuits, but it felt like a lifetime. He took one, I took one, he took one, I took one.
Finally, when we got to the end, he stood up and walked away. Well, we exchanged meaningful looks, then he walked away, and I breathed a sigh of relief and sat back.
A moment or two later the train was coming in, so I tossed back the rest of my coffee, stood up, picked up the newspaper, and underneath the newspaper were my biscuits.
@skyfire747 @HistoPol It is , one of my faves !
@HistoPol G’day HP 👋😊
Like it ! 😆
Ok let’s try this again!
I’m not addicted to Mastodon , honestly !
@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Because the Consultant suggested approaching the NAS as an additional resource the GP leapt on that as the way forward … 2 reasons why
A) it saves him doing anything
B) it saves his budget .
C) he’s a dick with very little idea about MH !
@HistoPol @androcat @actuallyautistic Currently lacking the spoons to pursue it, but I guess chasing the GP who sorted the referral for my ASD Dx will be the next step.
@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Evening HP
Thank you 🙏
The GP essentially refused to do anything & aimed me at the National Autistic Society , who are a charity & therefore cannot refer me for further tests or treatment 🙄🤦♂️
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 186 , Thursday 02/05/2024
So I’ve been feeling ruff as a bears bum for a few days now (again , you would think more regular exercise would take me the other way 🙄) so I planned to try and sleep thru to 8ish. I put in my ear plugs & set the alarm accordingly.
I was awake at 05:50 … a mix of my traitorous body responding to its Pavlovian training & the noise of herself romping round the house like baby elephant , in that considerate way she has.
So here I sit, my brain is moving at glacial speeds & my body feels like a train hit it.
At least she’s in the office today, so a day of peace & quiet!
I hate how little I am able to do at the moment , either thru illness or depression stealing my motivation.
Sometimes I wish I had a child , or a dog - they seem to be highly motivational from what I can see from the lives of others who have them.
I would be a terrible father or dog owner though , so probably best all round that I avoid both .
Oh while I’m on a roll I WISH my tinnitus would give me a break! It’s been screaming so loud in my ears for days now!
Where to go next on my ASD journey has been on my mind for a few days, the GPs completely negative reaction last time I went to see him has ripped me asunder. Where I had a set path now I flounder in indecision. I guess I have to decide if I need to be able to function better in society , or whether I just stick 2 fingers up at society & return to being a hermit.
Had a really epic FO4 session today after I finished my chores & then when Mrs S. got home we went & did our civic duty & voted - me being plagued by dizzy spells, nausea & exhaustion on the walk there and back & her being plagued by her dodgy knee ! We made a right pair, I think the thing that holds our marriage together at the moment is the need for mutual physical support , together we make a whole working person !
Caved & watched the first episode of Fallout - I’ve missed a couple of the games so I don’t know just how true it is to the earlier games, but I (& surprisingly Mrs S.) enjoyed it , so yeah, roll on ep 2 !
Final Thoughts.
Others write of monumental achievements , of beating challenges , or of coping with pain or personal circumstances that would reduce a normal person to jelly. I wish I were that strong.
I defo have EDFitis again , & it seems as though it’s gonna take its own sweet time to pass. Bummer !
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
Ok Peeps, I’ve been trying to get the day started for the las 2 hours - I guess I should make an effort & get my bum into gear ! Laters 😊🫶🐿️🖖
⌨️📴 Try not to break the interweb while I’m away 😁😜😁
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 180 , Friday 26/04/2024
TL:DR Walkies, stress related mankyness, Masto cake wars & FO4 . What more can one wish of a Friday ??
Up around 6am . Breakfast & then walkies. There is a stress transfer thingy going on I think - the dizziness / nausea problems associated with dealing with EDF is now being triggered by the low level anxiety associated with not wanting to walk on a buggered foot.
A mix of this, the agoraphobia & the general dislike of peopling is making getting out for a walk a pain in the bum!
Had a brilliant banter session with some good friends on here , really cheered me up!
Played the new version of FO4 for a little while , the updated graphics & general fixes are breathing new life into the game for me.
Final Thoughts.
It’s entirely possible I may be addicted to FO4 , heaven only knows how many hours I’ve put into it. I really don’t know what it is about that game that keeps me coming back.
One day I might even finish all the DLCs 😆
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves
@HistoPol @actuallyautistic Evening HP my friend , this particular mob are a lot friendlier 😆
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 129 , Tuesday 05/03/2024
TL:DR just a typical day.
Went for a walk after breakfast, just a couple of km - but quite tiring even so.
Chores done, then started a quest on ESO for some special goodies.
Checked with the Psychiatry mob about my assessment- everything is on track , I just have to be patient apparently.
I’ve been on my own for much of the day , which was so nice !
Of course there were triggers when she got back , but nothing a stiff rum couldn’t deal with.
Final Thoughts.
I want to be more active, but after last time I know I have to take it easy.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #TheMammutMoves
Morning all 👋
An itinerant squirrel poet, aka @MaJ1 New to the whole word smithing thing so don’t be too harsh.Write as the muse hits me in the face, so output will probably be irregular, but I want to explore a world of art n poetry that has previously eluded me so will be boosting along those lines.Boosting is the algorithm here, so if you like my stuff please get it out there 🙏 https://justmytoots.com/@Tim_Mctuffty@beige.party
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