Notices by Lizzie (lizzie@brain.worm.pink)

my perception of region-based memory management has gone from “compile time memory management for functional languages? no reference counting & no tracing? its too good to be true. the algorithm seems hard though”
and now my opinion is “all that was true but this fucking sucks actually. algorithm is straightforward though”

@georgia the main issue he has with me is that i do not particularly value my own control. it drives him crazy that i dont want to be a tiny dictator.

@georgia also thank you :)

@georgia me being trans did make him crash out way harder but i’ve always been on the path to inferiority in his eyes

@georgia id rather be inferior. his superior class is vile

@georgia 💭 i should become a nun

@georgia a lot of why he’s been crashing out the last few years is that he judges me to be in the inferior category in every way and im fine with it, so he has to find ways that other people made me inferior so it isnt his fault, and if its his fault then he’s not actually great an he cant take that. all that boils down to him thinking its completely reasonable to accuse me of being an estrogen street dealer working for the southern baptist church

@georgia he’s actually abandoned randism proper. he used to justify looking down on others bc he blamed their choices but now he’s a hard determinist so he thinks people are just inherently superior or inferior based on random chance

@georgia im generally against debate bc of how much he tried to make debate him when i was little

@georgia not since i was little. what he values is itself misled (he loves ayn rand). if someone seeks to love then you can seek it together. if someone despises love and calls it weakness and foolishness you can only wait. neither really makes for debate

@georgia he is atheist

@georgia this reminds me that my dad’s neighbors when he was growing up around madurai were jewish

@georgia he grew up perceiving india as being so full of so many different religions so a lot of the hindu supremacy stuff in india makes him miserable

which also makes it kinda funny that he goes on about how hinduism is better than other religions and everyone else is idiots who should become hindu or atheist

“missed L2” in computing vs “missed L2” in space

apologetics memes for awful teens

it took 5 years of the police being after him but they got penis man 😔. fucked up

@georgia oops i dropped “pf theosis” somehow making it “as those who use the language would say”

@georgia actually that kinda works and i didnt need to edit it

@georgia oh gnostics do have a concept of sophia for sure but it is distinctly different from the orthodox concept. its an attempt to affirm created existence if anything.

i dont think the cross as coronation is an inversion of earthly kinghood so that Jesus can return as a normal king later. i think the crucifixion is as much the hight of glory as the resurrection. as those who use the language would say, divinization is being crucified alongside christ. i dont think the second coming is fundamentally different. i think it’s the restoration that has intruded into the world made total.

@georgia christianity as i experience it is in a bit of an interesting spot since we avoid some of the issues (i mean we now have a woman in the see of canterbury/primus inter pares of the communion and even the conservatives across largely like her). a close friend of the communion, the church of sweden has a straight up majority of women as clergy.

but obviously thats not erased patriarchy. its improvement to the point that we broadly realize women are no less an image if christ. a lot of east african anglicans want to bring back stoning gays but are fine with women as bishops.

and there are some things entrenched. its ‘our father in heaven’ and not ‘our mother in heaven’ as c s lewis’s cope argument against women’s ordination eagerly recalls. mary is our most treasured saint and, as my bishop argues, the most fundamental example of what it means to be christian (which has massively shaped how i think about a lot of things).

but we are a protestant church. we broadly do not hold her in the same esteem as our roman friends. the highest mariology actually comes from the christian east in the form of sophiology but idk much about sophiology and its not mainstream in anycase.

now gender and christianity does get a little weird since nobody serious is going to say that maleness somehow lies in the divine nature nor does it lie in the particular hypostases of the trinity (one of whom is often given the grammatical feminine). Jesus Himself gave birth as many icons understood the clear implications of the water from His body. maximus argues that sexual differentiation itself was against God’s design and ive seen maximians argued that the rift is closed in Christ (though only in principle before He returns)

and while jesus kept many women close to him and sent some out among the 70 apostles in luke, the 12 were all men. (well mostly. the apostle who rested at jesus’s bosom was often associated with a third gender in medieval thought bc of his associations with certain prayer practices).

many early transmasculine saints came to be venerated though transfeminine ones died in obscurity.

some might argue that the whole system of holy orders inherently represents a patriarchal sort of authority, and i can kinda see it but i ignore it bc everyone more protestant than me is scary. i will say that i think that many wrongly perceive of the role of bishop. i do think the conception that runs core to the infallible papacy leaves behind the kenotic inverted kingship of Christ.

all of this is disconnected and disorganized but this is genuinely the kinda stuff that bounces around in my head all day. i don’t really move from christianity bc if i converted to another religion i would be extremely christian about it and my sisters who build individual syncretic belief systems seem a little untethered imo.