In less words than more, a type of spiritual awakening and internal revival. I had made mistakes. Chose the wrong crowd to depend upon for community. Had some lucky breaks, but overall a never ending series of stress to the next.
It’s difficult to describe without disclosing the intimate details of my life for all to read here. I guess the oddness are my mannerisms and day to day behavior. I try to temper myself - not wear my hatred and disdain on my sleeve. Walk in the presence of others and accept the differences to get along.
In other ways, my oddity comes from my overall lack of enthusiasm though - like some pent up angst except as a grown ass man. Definitely not a good look and something I’m sat here processing tonight.