@emmalilian @faithisleaping @NicolaElle @rooster This was definitely where I was, @siege - I knew I needed to get out of the house that was already almost burnt down before I went with it. And while I only identified as non-binary and genderfluid early on, I knew where my euphoria pointed, I just didn't really feel like I *was* a woman yet until I started living as one. Once I had been transitioning openly in my life, I finally found that sense of ownership in being a woman and felt myself as *being* a woman every day.
I also wonder, given what you mentioned about HRT, how much of it is still wrapped around our internalized belief that gender is this naturalized thing in the body? The idea that if we just change the biology we can transition, when transitioning is actually a day-to-day labor of growth and living in the world.