@Omega_Variant @Sui @kf01 @diceynes @Doll @SchizoCynic @KitlerIs6 I exploded on the timeline. I was sick of them repeatedly telling me who I am allowed to talk to and what I am allowed to say. A young lady that thought she was dating Kacho..was often attacking me for vague posting about it so I stopped even that. I will include my vague posts.
My dumbass thought it would end eventually if I kept my mouth shut.
Fast forward to december. A man that was my friend developed a crush on me. I am not including his name because forgiveness has been accepted on both ends and we don't talk anymore but I respect his privacy. We were not an option. He had someone and I had someone. He didn't accept no at first. He evaded my blocks. I went into ncd chat asking for advice on what I could possibly do to stop it. I didn't know the technical end of it and mentioned no names because if it wasn't possible to get help, what was the point in starting drama? My response from ncd matrix was " don't bring drama into matrix chat." I knew from this I was on my own.
I had learned from 5 ppl that one of their group was "warning ppl" about me. That's fine. If ppl believe gossip...they are welcome to hit the door. Same with when Sui was warning ppl about me. It never hurt my feelings. It was just exhausting because ppl always felt honor bound to tell me...ngl it hurt my feeling a bit. I possibly foolishly believe I am nice or try to be nice.
Then my sickness got worst in January. I was dealing with things I had never dealt with before.. depression...exhaustion...pain for months. I overreacted to a sexual post from nef. I asked him to dial back the sexual talk toward me on timeline. He wasn't used to this from me. Tbh the sexual stuff just makes threads awkward and I wanted giggles. He thought I was being told by platinum what to say.
Platinum knew I wasn't acting normal. Overtop the sickness, my dad had just had brain surgery, I had gotten a bad concussion. I couldn't even type for a few weeks or talk without stuttering. Plat tried to tell nef to take it easy on me for a few days because of the concussion..but knew I didn't like private info sent so didn't tell nef why. They butted heads like men do when they are both dominate and stubborn.
This started a fight with nef. I wanted him to talk in private but nef is nef. He doesn't trust ppl...with cause and thought he knew everything.
I got involved when I thought nef had gone too far with the wife thing.
NCD dogpiled instead of telling 2 grown ass men, who were friends, to apologize to each other.
Kacho and according to Kacho, Ew were rejoicing in ncd dogpiling me. Saw this as proof that I was all the awful things they said.
This started Kacho coming at me again and my dumbass apologizing for a year ago not talking to him for ONE fucking week again.