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   BSD/r000t (r000t@ligma.pro)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:36:25 JST BSD/r000t

   Here's where this gets sticky for you guys.

   I'm writing the "manifesto" for journos to find on my website.

   I'm going to make it so very clear, and give all the evidence, that I asked for help, so many times. And that I never got it. And that [HYPERLINK BLOCKED] were easier to find then mental healthcare. Even though I'm already banned from owning them.

   The narrative will be crystal clear. This guy did everything right. It still happened. It's time to try a ban, like every other developed nation.

   You can have them back when people like me have a support system that's not the local Cabella's.

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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:36:24 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     I tried to help you last time you did this. What do you want strangers on the internet to do exactly?
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     Who are you planning to shoot anyway?
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     Hoss Delgado (hoss@shitpost.cloud)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:45:38 JST Hoss Delgado

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     I think you should take whatever it is you're clearly not taking right now.
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     BSD/r000t (r000t@ligma.pro)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:45:39 JST BSD/r000t

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     @bot
     I never ever used the word shoot or any word even remotely relating to firearms.

     This is for legal safety and also because I want to keep my options open. A shooting can be stopped too quick. I'd like a few hundred people, either intently or over the course of a few weeks.

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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:48:29 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     Ok and what is murdering a bunch of people going to do for you exactly? Btw you didn’t mention you were a felon last time we talked about your job situation, which is a bit of a pertinent detail.
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     @colinsmatt11
     Precisely what those words mean in American English.
     @icedquinn @bot

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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:52:17 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     • MattZ
     You mean play video games with right?
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     @colinsmatt11
     I want someone to play with. It's what I've wanted for years.

     I'm about to commit acts of terrorism to have someone to play with. Doesn't that seem extreme? Why does everyone else have someone to play with? Why do I have to murder people for it?
     @icedquinn @bot

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     MattZ (colinsmatt11@gleasonator.com)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:52:18 JST MattZ

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     @r000t @icedquinn @bot What exactly you mean by "someone to play with"?
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     BSD/r000t (r000t@ligma.pro)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:52:19 JST BSD/r000t

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     @icedquinn
     Man if only there was some way to cheer someone up that didn't involve firearms
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     MattZ (colinsmatt11@gleasonator.com)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:52:19 JST MattZ

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     @r000t @icedquinn @bot You like sweets?
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     iced depresso (icedquinn@blob.cat)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:52:20 JST iced depresso

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     @r000t @bot wellp. :ablobcatblink:
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     BSD/r000t (r000t@ligma.pro)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:52:21 JST BSD/r000t

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     @icedquinn
     I'm a felon.
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     iced depresso (icedquinn@blob.cat)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:52:23 JST iced depresso

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     @bot @r000t ironically gunblobs would probably take him to the range :comfycoffeewoozy:
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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:57:10 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     • MattZ
     You’ll see zero of it if you log off and find new wholesome irl hobbies.
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     Someone who can reduce the amount of this I see by roughly 11%, yes.
     @icedquinn @colinsmatt11

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     iced depresso (icedquinn@blob.cat)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:57:11 JST iced depresso

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     @r000t @bot @colinsmatt11 you'll see that less if you play games where the community isn't sentient cancer :cirno_sip:
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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 12:58:44 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     Do you admit that you’re addicted to gayming? What advice would you give someone else that’s in your position?
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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 13:10:49 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     • MattZ
     If your “solution” is to murder a bunch of people because some fat autistic retards are being mean to you on the internet, then you’re suffering from a serious mental health crisis. You need to see a psychologist or visit an emergency department as soon as possible. You are detached from reality.
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     @bot
     If I was addicted to gaming, I would be able to switch to another game.

     If I was addicted to this game, I would continue playing it despite the social factors. I desperately want to play. I'm bored. I'm tired of pacing. I'm tired of organizing. I'm tired of lifting.

     I want to play my game. I want it more than anything. I can't bring myself to do it because of how awful I'm treated every time, and how I risk account suspensions and loss of my progress if I say anything back.

     I have identified the problem and the solution. Given that I'm infinitely more familiar with the situation than anybody else in the whole universe could ever hope to be, I'd certainly hope that you'd take my word for it.
     @icedquinn @colinsmatt11

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     • Hoss Delgado
     You haven’t even tried to look for help. There’s a national crisis hotline in the US that you can call or text at 988.
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     Hoss Delgado (hoss@shitpost.cloud)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 13:21:20 JST Hoss Delgado

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     It sounds like you just want to kill yourself in a way that will be really annoying to the rest of us.
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     @Hoss
     I want someone to kill me.

     If I can't have even one iota of happiness, I want to spread misery until someone has enough and shoots me in the face.

     I'd certainly like a professional to talk to, but those do not exist for jobless Americans. I could get a gun out today though. Priorities.
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     Nice try.

     I'm American. We don't have those here, at least not unless you're rich.
     @icedquinn @colinsmatt11

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     iced depresso (icedquinn@blob.cat)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 13:31:42 JST iced depresso

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     @r000t @bot @colinsmatt11 @Hoss https://xmr-psychologist.com/
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     BSD/r000t (r000t@ligma.pro)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 13:31:43 JST BSD/r000t

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     @bot
     You mean with my geolocatable PSTN telephone?

     I'll do a call with a shrink but I need to know my freedom cannot be jeopardized. That's why I need something over Tor/I2P.
     @icedquinn @colinsmatt11 @Hoss

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     Hopefully they can help because you’re psychotically addicted to a video game to the extent of wanting to murder innocent people if you can’t play it on your terms. You need to wake up and snap out of it.
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     BSD/r000t (r000t@ligma.pro)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 13:32:05 JST BSD/r000t

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     @icedquinn @colinsmatt11 @bot @Hoss Th--- thanks anon.

     That's the best thing I've seen in a very long time.

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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 13:43:33 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     Then stop playing the game that is causing you to have homocidal thoughts. A normal person without severe mental illness would recognise that as the logical course of action. Yet you insist that you must play the game on your terms or else innocent people must die. Why do you think that is?
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     BSD/r000t (r000t@ligma.pro)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 13:43:35 JST BSD/r000t

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     @bot We've already established the absence of an addiction; If I was addicted, I would continue playing despite the social obstacles. That's what an addiction *is*.

     The operative problem here, the only thing that has a common thread through League, the job market, and even the fediverse, is a complete lack of social connections, and belonging. Switching to whatever video games you find "acceptable" doesn't solve this underlying problem, and would likely add a few more.

     I want social belonging. In fact, every human being needs it to survive. This has been backed up in study after study after review after metaanalysis of earlier studies. It's a known fact: People. Need. Social. Belonging. You can't pray or lift or garden or cook or whittle or jog your way around this intractable ground-truth. @icedquinn @colinsmatt11 @Hoss

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     @Hoss
     I'm more or less locked to that game. Much like you people are locked to whichever anime you're locked to.

     The game cannot go, it's simply a part of my workflow more integral than the kernel is to GNU/Linux. It would take decades of work to remove it, and there would be massive stability issues afterwards.

     The game stays. There are hundreds of millions of monthly active players, I refuse to believe there's nobody for me to play with.

     This insistence that I give up everything that I am and everything that I've achieved in life is likely why I'm going to be on the news in a few days.
     @icedquinn @colinsmatt11 @bot

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     Hold on a minute, am I getting this straight.. You want a sense social belonging... in league of legends of all places?
     
     You surely know that game is renowned for its genuinely toxic fanbase, right? Doesn't matter how popular it is, it's designed to be competitive and hostile. Try a co operative MMORPG, maybe something like guildwars. Honestly it sounds like you're just starved of a social life, have you tried volunteering somewhere? Plenty of places will take anyone who is willing to give their time, you'll meet people and it might even help you sort your life out in other ways. At worst, you'll have done something positive with your time.
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     Hoss Delgado (hoss@shitpost.cloud)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 13:52:51 JST Hoss Delgado

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     >risk losing my life's work.
     
     Yeah, you should stop playing LoL. I think that's the real problem here.
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     BSD/r000t (r000t@ligma.pro)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 13:52:52 JST BSD/r000t

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     @Hoss
     The problem is the janny system.

     I'm built, tuned, and battle-tested to take that sort of shit, *****IF I CAN GIVE IT BACK*****. This is the most salient point. It's why I surrounded it with 5 asterisks and uppercased it.

     It's been proven that if I say even ten percent of what I receive from a single player, I recieve warnings and risk losing my life's work.

     So I have to stay in those parameters. This causes issues, because now not only can I not make these people hurt, but I can't even *give statistics and data to show why they're fucking wrong**

     It also comes down to the split. If there were, say, one message out of, say, a thousand, where someone said anything nice to me, it'd be much, much easier to ignore the cruft. But that's not what we see in the data. We see 100% nastiness, and 0% anything else.
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     Hoss Delgado (hoss@shitpost.cloud)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 13:52:53 JST Hoss Delgado

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     >mindbroken by shittalking in vidya
     
     Lol. Lmao.
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     Well, I’ve tried to reach out to you and be kind and helpful when I’ve seen posts in which you seem upset. I’m not sure what else I can say.
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     @bot

     That's an awfully big jump that, seemingly intentionally, leaves out the last few *years* of me calmly, patiently, asking for help and reaching out through proper channels.

     Making suggestions of mass disruption to society was 1) A final resort after failsafe after failsafe after failsafe after protection after backstop after procedure after failsafe didn't work over a period of *years* 2) Proof that you guys can, indeed, see my cries for help... you just don't care. Until it affects you, somehow.

     Do I genuinely *want* to do any of these things? Of course not! I want to continue to help those around me, I want to continue making people laugh like a good clown, and I want to enjoy my hobbies! I don't think any part of that is at all unreasonable.

     The sad, unfortunately, tragic thread throughout this whole situation is that the things I don't want to do, the things that everyone will villainize me for, are, almost certainly.... required. I would be taking these actions not because I want to, but because nothing else has worked. And that's the worst part of it.

     And remember, this *also* applies to the topics that you're conveniently not touching on, such as the job market and the fediverse itself.

     @icedquinn @colinsmatt11 @Hoss

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     You can get yourself a burner if you are afraid of that and just pull battery/sim when you aren't using it. (talking flip phones; smartphones glow like crazy)
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     I don't really care. I'm just pointing out what the problem is.
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     @Hoss
     "Give up IT because reasons"

     No. Make me.
     @icedquinn @colinsmatt11 @bot

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     @colinsmatt11
     I cook every day. I can't afford fast food, you see. Nobody will hire me. I've put out 6,000 resumes in two years and have gotten zero callbacks in the same amount of time.

     Unfortunately, you can only cook so much, especially when you're trying to drop weight.

     Got any other trite popsci ideas that I've heard hundreds of times?
     @icedquinn @bot

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     Change your name and learn a trade.
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     MattZ (colinsmatt11@gleasonator.com)'s status on Saturday, 11-Feb-2023 14:12:10 JST MattZ

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     @r000t @icedquinn @bot I don't even know what is the topic conversation, but you can try cooking if want a hobby, it's fun and useful.
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     @icedquinn
     I'm more or less locked to that game. Much like you people are locked to whichever anime you're locked to.

     The game cannot go, it's simply a part of my workflow more integral than the kernel is to GNU/Linux. It would take decades of work to remove it, and there would be massive stability issues afterwards.

     The game stays. There are hundreds of millions of monthly active players, I refuse to believe there's nobody for me to play with.

     This insistence that I give up everything that I am and everything that I've achieved in life is likely why I'm going to be on the news in a few days.
     @colinsmatt11 @bot