Notices by CJ Bellwether (siege@octodon.social), page 3

better than the question of why are trans people so into clowns, is how does the fact that trans people are drawn to clowns instinctively as a survival mechanism influence their relation to clowning, and to their clown identity in a way that cis people who are drawn to clowning are not.

like a trans clown has to recognise that they are outside of society in the way that cis clowns are not. a cis clown can rely on the cis watcher to understand and relate to their inner experience.

a trans clown does not get this relationship.

do trans people make good clowns?
they dont make good cis clowns, but they make wicked trans clowns - which is better on all levels really.

my brain throwing up the question "but why are trans people so into clowns" randomly before i realise i think ive answered that for myself about a hundred times.

letting myself have a tiny bit of fake affirmation by pretending that "you are the .. 1st.. person in the queue" from the automated hospital phoneline is something to be proud of

why the absolute fuck do adults twist themselves into knots to find an ethical way to enjoy the Harry Potter brand.

just so fucking weak.

@old_angry_queer the whole segment was very hot.

"You may be The Woman from Hell but you came from my womb, and i shall shove you back up there and spit you out for Im timeless- timeless- Timeless Toni Storm and im going to rip your tits off"

nothing greater than a tv show that releases its new episodes on the dot at 00:01 midnight.

Mellybutton, its a bellybutton for Men.

@jalefkowit thank you that's what I needed to hear

@jorin yeah that seems to be my impression. I'm a gamer who doesn't go above 50 frames normally either so it seems like getting a 50 gen would be a lot of stress for something that would be overkill

I don't have half a year to wait, so my thoughts is will there be a 40 gen sale or basically is it all about to disappear

I need to get back on the rung of a desktop computer after 15 years, should I be getting a 40 gen geforce now while I can because it's gonna be forever to get a 50 gen and they will be scalped to hell while there won't be any new 40 gens left or should I wait?

@amberage yeah big time. They're 'just trying to help'.

@amberage the British version of WPATH they created a few years back when WPATH started suggesting trans people were telling the truth

I had the best endo in UK trans health prior but they were continually in danger from BAGIS so had to try and not cast a long shadow in their actions. The politics of trans healthcare as a corporate industry is a huge impact on our care.

I've said before but being seen by an endo who doesn't work in trans health is radically better. They aren't under pressure, they aren't suspicious, they just treat you as a patient. Makes me realize how revolutionary it would be if this was normal.

@bri_seven yeah no this was all just my hormone provider and GP restricting my access and me refusing to comply

@sophia81 and no, no reason for going that high, your limit is your estrogen receptors so theres a max amount that actually can affect you - the rest is a waste.

I was doing injectibles because of my hormone care being restricted.