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Trauma Dump:

So I chatted again with someone I havent seen since 2019. I asked in private if I could talk about Politics.

He said somethign like "I would vote for trump again.

I held back my rage, and I asked him... why.

He talked about the National Debt.

I thought... That capitalistic idea is more important than life?!

(sigh)

Trauma dump 2
Nothing is trash, I kept telling her over and over again, she still designated stuff as trash, I had five meltdowns in one day, the most I have EVER had my whole life, the most severe is after she grabbed my #1 favorite holiday decor, threw it on the ground saying "that's trash"

The lie, when all the truth failed to get her to stop trashing my stuff...
"I'm saving all of this for when I am old and grey, to have a vintage museum"

And until this day, I hoped for that future...

Trauma dump

The first lie I've told in over a decade, was after three days of a woman who agreed for her team to help me move my whole hoard of objects... Who dropped a lot, damaged a collectible worth ovr $600, spilled cola on my new laptop keyboard, dropped a bucket of legos in a public stairwell, complained about the quality of the bucket when she had not sealed it properly opening ALL of my containers to look for "trash". Nothing was trash.

I lied to get her to stop trashing my stuff.

Me: I'm always honest.
Them: Liar.

Trauma dump part 3

Due to the loss of enoguh funds from Trump's bungling of Federal Funding, destroying the chance of that dream/lie coming true... I have to "junk" a storage unit of stuff, to have enough funds to eat.

Destroyed by Trump.
My wish killed.
My 1st wish for my future:
To be a pro artist.
Destroyed by AI.

I've never had the life I want, because of other people.

PS: Contrary to 'Trauma dump' wiki. I've always been aware that some people have it worse. Doesnt negate my hell.

@hellomiakoda I believe it is a bodily reflex to pull away, regardless of what our frontal lobes choose to do.

@theautisticcoach It's not stopping or starting that bothers me the most... it's the sudden u-turns at 60mph when someone demands my attention to switch tasks immediately.

@timberwraith Being there in the life you need seems better than the alternative of being a fake imo.

It sucks here tho, so much mistreatment from society, but we have our rare few who like us as we are.

Galileo inspires me, so does Alan Turing.

@georgetakei They have forgotten the job of the president, which is to serve the people.

@hellomiakoda I'm using Linux Mint Bazzite

@hellomiakoda Linux has been a struggle for me to get used to.

I did switched one PC to Linux, in the middle of this Windows 11. I have felt like windows has been crap ever since 8 came out.

Unable to shove my taskbar to the side was the last nail in the coffin for me.

I have three PC's. Only one has Windows, and when this 11 dies, I will go to linux with all my machines.

@hellomiakoda And XP was my favorite.
Gotten worse every version.
I was ok with Vista, I was refusing to use 7 until I was forced into it.
9? I dont remember at all.
I hated 10.
I hate 11.

I use Win11 still, because some things just dont work on Linux. or I have to install a crap ton of other things to play things I have on Windows.

And I still have not remembered what Linux file explorer is called.

What is the name of the MS paint on Linux?

@hellomiakoda 8 and 8,1 was the word in my opinion. I never used smartphones and it was like the entire interface turned into a smartphone.

I got lucky and found a legit version of windows 7 before they were taken off the market, so I completely skipped 8 stuff. I probably only had the 8 crap for a week.

@hellomiakoda Start Menu before 8 is where to shut it down.

When 8 came out, I had no clue how to shut the thing down. I had to call someone to help.

@hellomiakoda Grats!
(cusses at invasive firewall)

@hellomiakoda I wonder if damage to brain cells causes migraines.

@hellomiakoda Shove it up Uranis! 🤪

@hellomiakoda LULZ!

Ba-dum-tss.

If a dog barks in my hearing range, that conflicts with my disability needs.

Cant move away, cant get away, policies are letting dogs live anywhere, and I suffer and die from stress-induced mental anguish, a psychological death from neglect, ignorance, policy adherance, implicit boas, bigotry, class inequality, etc.

All of the above and more, cant pick just one cause of death, causes are many, cant pick just one unless you wanna be a form filler.

Damned rules keeling us slowly.

@hellomiakoda Idk about dimmer nobs, the only dimmer knobs I know are scrolls, vertical, go down to dim, afaik.