Yea I remember just trying to touch a girl and I literally couldn't hug her. Like I was aware I was in a dream, but if I tried to change anything about it, I was running into a wall; everything just fell like mirrors and glass around it.

I think I have gone from lucid to non-lucid a few times, but it didn't feel like memories being whips so much as just returning into a state where I'm sorta an observing passenger. I mean, I'm not. I'm doing the actions. But I'm also .. not .. it's almost like meditation if that makes sense.

I'm sure everyone has very different types of dreams. Yours sound pretty intense. I'm sure I might have intense dreams too, but I don't remember a lot of mine. When I was younger, I'd write down my dreams right when I woke up. I typed out a bunch of them back in the day. I sold my old website domain and never put the dreams back up, but they're all in the archive:

https://web.archive.org/web/20081020214624/http://www.sumdog.com/index.php?page=dreams&dream=old