@Owl @vriska @Goalkeeper @burner Yeah I’m aware how jewish some of my hobby’s are and things i like are. like it’s very obvious to me, i see it constantly. I’ve had pretty much everything scraped away so i just permanently see the ugliness now. I enjoy it so I do it anyway. I don’t pour as much in because it’s just not the same once you see it, but I still need something. I’d like to make my own stuff but it’s hard and time consuming. I can’t snap my fingers. I’m mostly self aware. But shit man. Utterly joyless