@matty @SuperLutheran The old adage, "God is not pushing you he's preparing you." Yes in that we are disciplined for sin but discipline is love. If a parent didn't discipline a child they would never learn. If a parent didn't love and care for their outcome they would correct behavior.
Think of Joseph. His life was trials and pain. Betrayed by family, sold into slavery, accused falsely and imprisoned. Finally he interupted a dream for the Pharoah that helped his people survive a time a famine. Those trials taught him resilience, forgiveness and humility. He became a wise leader. He chose to trust God. Chose faith and God didn't forsake him. He stayed with him, even though Joseph might not have see it. His ppl were blessed for it.
You are here on this side of fedi. You clearly see what is coming for us in this world. I don't think. I know, God needs strong and battle tested ppl for what is coming. Don't let it defeat you. See the blessing. He is making you stronger for what is to come.