@teratology @dommymommy I think I fell into boxes like those of "loneliness", I mean I don't have to feel this way technically speaking. it is a general heavy feeling and especially after being in a shit relationship it's even harder to get rid of, but really it's something I've adopted for some reason and now can't shake off. I do think some other factor needs to come in to make me shine a light on how ridiculous the concept of loneliness is but I'm not sure what that factor is. feels like something needs to come into place for that to happen. maybe if I found someone to love or whatever, but honestly if I can't be doing good alone like I used to I don't think that's really me, I need to return to how I actually was. and I need to form a proper opinion about this rather than being able to write an essay with no coherent conclusion or overall specific thing to get out of this topic