@teratology @dommymommy prior to this year I never felt loneliness, I may have been alone but I didn't mind, it was really nice actually. don't know what happened, I really have felt lonely this year almost constantly. literally never experienced a feeling of loneliness or of depression before this. so proud of past me, I think I can get back to that although maybe with more energy or something to be happy about in life. I used to not have something to be happy about in life but still do it because idk i was just built different. and now the fact I'm not is additionally crushing