@nyx @erin yes, we had it all — spotty employment, 6 and a half years in college, learned the hard way how messy queers can be to work with (we helped run a queer group), we became aware of our plurality (the first few years, where we were also studying, were overwhelming), and had a few drug-induced breakdowns (amounting to acquiring extreme trauma in about 30% of instances where we used drugs)

this is the first year in our life where our ability to do anything for ourselves has felt most stable, and it has been dominated by various health issues making actual consistent productivity impossible

after as much chaos as we've had, it feels as though going full schizo is the logical next step