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I think that was specifically aimed at me.

If this instance wasn't blocked by a lot of the blocklists, I would most likely be harassed by that part of mastodon as I have been at least once. Made to feel unwelcome... so unwelcome that one guy wanted me to leave the planet. Which is a roundabout way of saying that he wanted me to die without saying it. Even though I have been on the fediverse longer than they have been.

I'm mostly left alone because I don't stir up a lot of drama, I don't make my identity out of physical traits. I don't make a big deal out of my sexuality or anything like that. I don't make things obvious in a bio because I'd rather people focused on my posts than a bio or traits that I have no control over. I know what people are like on both sides of the divide and being more of a moderate on many things makes me not very liked by both sides. Even maggos thinks that I'm some sort of edgelord for stating facts about the past of fedi and my experiences of it. I cannot change the past or the facts to not be viewed as an edgelord so once again I am condemned and othered.

I wouldn't change being on this side even though I don't really fit in. It's probably more accurate that I'm a part of a third group, because I long for the days of GS instead of all this crap I have had to endure since mastodon came along. Mastodon changed the culture of the fediverse, made it a lot more closed off and thus less welcoming. It's just a different culture than I am used to and if I had to adhere to it then I would become very anxious about saying the wrong things. As a 'sensitive' person, I actually need other people to have tolerance for my differences in opinions and to have the freedom to express those views and for people to let me be there. But I find this more in circles where freedom is a priority over catering to sensitivities which seems counterproductive but anxiety works that way. I can't say that I ever feel represented by groups that claim to represent people with my traits or experiences either. So I am left behind and even marginalised for holding the wrong opinions.