It's not bad to talk about how you feel. I wear my heart on my sleeve and (I'd like to think at least!) people respect me for it. If your concern was in regards to your moderator permissions, all you had to do was ask me to remove them if you felt it was too much responsibility. Admittedly, there is a bit of a difference in staff and just normal user accounts, but there also isn't. For example, I'd rather be "matty" than "admin".

I am willing to work with basically anyone for any reason that furthers my visions and goals, as well as their own, so long as they are not morally objectionable. I was under the impression that you understood that, otherwise I'd not have wasted my time working with you in regards to the gmod server. I can't tell you enough how much I was looking forward to that.

It may be a surprise to you, but I have more than I let on going on in real life myself. In fact, things continue to get worse for me, but doing what I do here provides an escape of sorts. I want others to feel the same way, and will go to any lengths to make sure they're happy. It seems your own insecurities have held you back. It is what it is. I was happy to have you here.