@Omega_Variant @Sui @kf01 @diceynes @Doll @SchizoCynic @KitlerIs6 I again talked to a mod. So I decided my own server might be the only way. Kacho started making accounts. Platinum was in charge of defederating. He checked for Kacho accounts every morning so I wouldn't see because my dumbass still thought reasoning would work.
Fast forward right before I left. Kacho threatened to make everyday a living nightmare until I left fedi. I was defiant but NCD made me feel like it was hopeless. I thought they were my friends so...there was no point. I left.
2 weeks in. After a full week of bedrest...I was pissed. I got on. Spammed nef and Kacho with suicide kermit the frog. This started both basically seeing it as cute and not the mean thing I had intend. Nef and I made up. Kacho and I talked because I don't like threats. That pissed me off. Eventually we agreed at his request to forget the past and attempt to be friends. I specified "just friends correct?" He said yes.
We were never together. I directly flipping specified just friends.
He asked to come on my server. I asked friends. I wasn't sure if I should as a gesture of friendship but I really didn't want ppl on my server and if I was going to open my doors it would be first Dicer, then Aryan and alabasterbrick. Not for relationships. I trusted them. They were kind. I said no to kacho. I felt it would project the wrong idea...it had before...and make me a target. He was upset. A year ago ppl used to pick my nail color....like my pfp. I stopped talking to kacho after he asked last year and never gotten it. As a gesture he asked me to paint them blue...because my nails are done every 3 weeks I painted them the color he asked. I don't give a fraggle rock. Apparently this is now proof that we were in a relationship.
The most insulting shit is ppl would think he and I could be in a relationship. I only tried to be friends cuz I was fucking tired. It had been a fucking year. I didn't want to be told how shit of a human being he thought I was for the rest of eternity.
He started shit on the first day of my vacation. The day after a family emergency. I cried my whole plane ride to my friends... and the sane fucking day my slipped on a washed out trail. Sprained my wrist, got cut up and nearly fell in into the gosh damn Grand Canyon. Then my friend Jeanette got a call her dumbass husband...only being alone 24 hrs cut off his finger. Only about one inch but it still had to be reattached.
So when he started shit...I realized it had been one year exactly. One year since shit started with that group.
I reflected on everything and blew shit up. I stayed on my debate alt to share trip pics to my exercise group for my trip.
Then another person...started shit after talking to Kacho.
I was fucking done so I decided to leave for good.
I didn't start shit. I didn't tell anyone outside of Neetz who is daring Marine. In all honesty I think he is just trying to help his girlfriend. I am not after Marine. I never came at her. I don't do that shit. I just fucking left. I didn't tell anyone to start shit in my honor. I just fucking left.
Ppl keep telling me. I don't care. You all win. I am fucking gone. My dad broke his back last night. I DO NOT fucking need fedi melodrama. I got my own shit. Forget I existed. Make me into the fedi boogeyman. I don't care.