tl;dr you really don't like Abrahamic religions
Your hatred for this particular sect blinds you to the fact that the genocidal narcissistic nature you keep harping on is literally just "initiated vs uninitiated" and is a component of literally every belief set since the beginning of time. Secret handshake clubs is a form of social regulation. You are doing it right now, trying to demonstrate your initiatedness.
What is it you believe in, then?