Notices by CJ Bellwether (siege@octodon.social), page 6

how bad? lets say.. about maybe.. a month and a half of me not reading the emails?

the sweet feeling of finally finding out that really important serious of scary emails that you've been putting off reading for FAR too long due to executive dysfunction turned out to be the other persons secretary continually apologising for having to keep rebooking your appointment because of their own issues and not in fact you having messed everything up.

O'Dwyer being a legend actually took time to reach out with an update and apology on this. The documentary was being worked on and rendering right up to the last minute so they didnt have time to do captions that would be correctly timed but they're being added soon.

now i feel sheepish.

also its O'Dwyer and (im guessing the NoClip team) who are famously great with captions.

and to be clear, i dont mean this is just accessibility.

anything on youtube where the captions are filling in from automatic captioning in that way where its all to the left.. we the audience have learnt thats a value signal for a lot of different things about what we're watching.

if the text is centered pretyped (and correct), it projects like the thing you're watching actually matters. Someones put effort into it.

not just cheap but like, just makes it all seem painfully old and out of date.

a tiny critical failure for a brand.

Valve putting out their 20 year anniversary doc for Half Life 2 on youtube.

critical failure, they didnt hire someone to do captions. like how many people watch with captions nowadays - especially documentaries where the words said are important and are often being spoken by non-actors.

makes the whole thing seem cheap.

With the long scheduled final dry docking of the good ship Octodon coming up on the horizon, i will be transferring my account to hackers dot town and findable here: @siege@hackers.town

I will be beginning the auto transfer system shortly. Just posting this here cos.

@melissagreen @JoscelynTransient @amberage thank you for the offer <3

@thraeryn @TheGibson that actually sounds ideal

@amberage yeah most def, just need to figure out where would be good to leap to

also octodon is shutting down shortly as a fediverse server so i wanted to make sure i put it somewhere safe - even if it is just anecdotal polling.

@x4nw yeah, long going argument with the person who set up transfemscience dot org. Theyr'e still sticking to their guns that it inhibits sexual desire.

https://transfemscience.org/articles/progestogens-sexual-desire/

as i think i commented on the original thread, the most interesting result of the polls to me was the clear lack of decrease in sex drive reported across all three groups.

when i first started posting about progesterone for transfeminine HRT, one of the most common counter theoies given against taking it was that it would be more likely to decrease sex drive due to its anti-androgenic effects and potential for negative mental health reaction.

i have updated the old WHY PROGESTERONE doc

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1OGiomfiMk18nPb3ITKZD9pWPvWRUlyI06enxahQpHBI/edit?tab=t.0

to now include a small section at the bottom with the PROG POLL conducted on the fediverse in 2023.

https://octodon.social/@siege/110441708843689395

its of course completely anedoctal but in lieu of any actual desire of scientists to conduct any real scientific studies on transfems taking progesterone, i felt its inclusion was overall more beneficial to those considering prog as an option in their regimen

@janegayclerk oh yeah, thats that allopregnanolone kicking in hardcore as a sedative.

great if you're having a panic, terrible if you're trying to be a normal person walking down the road to buy some milk and bread.

a day, take a day to find something - anything that isnt social media to do as shock runs through your system.

Everyone and their grandmother is finding someone to point the finger at for why what happened, happened. Everyone is compromised right now, and they're going to push the narrative into the shape they want - why they were right and others were wrong.

its noise. you dont need that noise. no one has answers. take a day.

ive enjoyed my time with Disco Elysium, but something has scratched at the back of my mind the entire way thourgh.

that an Estonian team of all people would put together an invented alternate to our world where the political focus is largely on how awful that worlds version of EU/NATO is, symbols of centrism, while completely removing the USSR/Russia from existence, instead replacing it with a "glorious revolution communist".

That overt decision stratches at me. The game is often at its more vicious when critiquing the uselessness of the EU countries and their "slow, glacial, democracy" that has destroyed the country.

Yet the Estonians i know, tend to view a lot of their country's long term existence as the struggle between the Europe and Russia with a huge emphasis on the forced deportations that Stalin inflicted on their population post WW2 and imperialist attempts to genetically Russify the population. This is a country where soviet statues were torn down and every year there are fights over attempts to build them again.

So over the game this bad taste just built up for me that i couldnt put away and slowly disconnected me from the motifs it was putting forward. Something felt deeply compromised.

@breakfastgolem im willing to bet someone else on mastodon owns a missile. sorry to say.

it is trash, and you are signalling that you cant tell when something is trash, or dont care if what you put out under your name is trash.

it signals that you are a trash person.