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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Sunday, 05-May-2024 21:15:31 JST leechseed @teto older women in their 50s are among the groups i get along with the best. every wedding i go to i always end up befriending at least one. they're so cool! -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Wednesday, 24-Apr-2024 18:46:37 JST leechseed @sun Mary, Edith, Therese, Monica, Anne, Cecilia, Catherine, Magdalena, Rose, Jacinta, Jane. -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Wednesday, 03-Apr-2024 05:13:37 JST leechseed @grips yellow gays are attempting to take over cawfee -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Thursday, 28-Mar-2024 02:24:28 JST leechseed @grips @LukeAlmighty people who wear maid outfits freak me out -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Thursday, 28-Mar-2024 02:24:28 JST leechseed @LukeAlmighty i play fighting games and every tournament i go to there's a LOT of troons. it feels weird to think that ive interacted with more troons by an order of magnitude than the average person has. -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Wednesday, 27-Mar-2024 18:01:35 JST leechseed befriended a black woman today.
is this the beginning of my anti-racist arc???? -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Saturday, 23-Mar-2024 08:23:16 JST leechseed @grips I think it's funny how complaining about gypsies is a common experience with the people I know who've been to Europe for sizeable chunks of time. -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Friday, 05-Jan-2024 20:17:50 JST leechseed @lina i def feel this LOL. the classes i skipped the most were the classes i did the best in. i'd regularly schedule 9 AM classes and sleep until 11 AM because I knew the teacher wouldn't take attendance and I could just study from the textbook later.
TBH I wish I was more of a gamer though. -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Friday, 05-Jan-2024 17:02:54 JST leechseed the masculine urge to take 21 credits to finish school a year early -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Monday, 11-Dec-2023 21:53:28 JST leechseed @grips kicked out of school and then monetizes cawfee and then becomes trillionaire -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Wednesday, 08-Nov-2023 09:42:59 JST leechseed @YeetLibs i voted for pippa but i didnt expect it to be this much of a holocaust -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Friday, 03-Nov-2023 12:49:59 JST leechseed @lina lifting weights is my therapy. when i'm down or flooded with negative emotions even doing a set of pullups helps. getting a pump helps make me not depressed. -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Friday, 03-Nov-2023 12:43:57 JST leechseed stocked my lab fridge with skyr and energy drinks. back on my late night lab math/programming/journaling vibe.
i wonder what my youtube rec meant by this. -
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leechseed (leechseed@cawfee.club)'s status on Saturday, 30-Sep-2023 15:00:39 JST leechseed As I get older, the less I can study late at night.
I think I was about 17 when I made this account? It was near the tail end of my high school time. Back then, I could study all night until 5 AM without any caffeine, and I'd spend so many nights just reading stuff that I thought was cool during COVID. It was a really schizo range of topics, from manga to Aristotle to whatever else caught my eye. I'd crash, wake up at 1 or 2 AM, go work out, and repeat the cycle.
I'm in my early 20s now, so I'm still young, but I can barely study until 2-ish. I'm a lot more efficient with my study time than when I was a teenager, but I wish I had my teenager energy back.
There's definitely compounding factors. I think I wrecked my body about a year ago taking this one Grad programming class that had 60 hour homeworks on top of a few upperdiv math classes + research. I lost about 20 pounds and barely slept. I'm sure there was some mental stress there too - I would only regularly see two people, my roommate and a close friend of mine who was super concerned about my health because of that semester. While I've recovered the weight and get regular sleep nowadays, I don't think my body has fully recovered from the stress that semester placed on me.
I wonder to what extent I enjoy this type of stuff though. I definitely get bored if there's nothing to study. I guess man by his nature likes to stretch himself out towards knowing, but I wonder if I have a disordered attachment towards doing hard stuff. It's when taxing myself to exhaustion that I truly feel satisfied, but it's definitely had its toll on my body. I wonder if I'd tell freshman me to not do the path that I took.
But I'd be fooling myself if I thought freshman me would listen to my current advice, if it was against studying until fatigue set in. I don't think I would have been able to live with myself if I didn't develop my skills as fast as possible.
I'm not sure. I can pretend to have all the answers, but at the end of the day I'm just a confused zoomer. All I know is that I'll follow my instincts wherever they'll take me, like some sort of animal. That usually works out.