Notices by 🏴 (scorpiontongue@kolektiva.social)

if me *speaking up against a blatant bigot* causes a bunch of people to "lose respect for me," their respect was contingent in my silence and my obedience.

and, simply, hell fucking no to that.

i'm not here to reinforce you. i'm here to speak the truth and use my voice to protect others.

they're not "losing respect for me."

they never had it & they're terrified.

@eris
all my gen z bbs are down af!

i am allowed to be mad.
i am allowed to write shit on my secret diary.
i am allowed to know that things are Bad.
i am allowed to have opinions.
i am allowed to be myself.
i am allowed to feel in danger.
i am allowed to have the tiny amount of space i take up, and i am allowed to protect myself when i feel like i need to.

i am not a shitass for having boundaries or fears or needs or whatever. i am allowed to be a person who says "no" and "you hurt me" and "i deserve better than this."

i am not evil or shitty or selfish or awful for having limits.

my mom thinks my roommate & i are "special friends" && her mom has giving us her blessing to get married, but the funniest part of this is we really just are besties in a coven 🥲🥲🥲🥲

my grandma friend called us today and asked how we were. i was like "everyone at school thinks i'm a terrorist bc i think palestinians are people."

AND TELL ME WHY SHE GOES, "well, sweetie, you *are* a terrorist, but you are a terrorist who will bring so much good into the world with your bravery and compassion," LIKE WHAT? GRANDMA!!!! 😂 💀

there are way too many fucking cowards out here.

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE DO HURTFUL THINGS & THEN IGNORE ME WHEN I TELL THEM THEY'VE BEEN HURTFUL.

IF YOU CAN'T BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO OWN UP TO YOUR HARM, YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE ANYWHERE NEAR ME.

WHY DO PEOPLE KEEP HURTING ME ALL THE TIME / WHY CAN'T PEOPLE STOP HURTING ME / WTF?

i know i am kind of high maintenance, but i am also a beautiful orchid, so i mean.... i'm worth it ???????????

opened up to someone & explictly said they were hurting me. gave them the benefit of the doubt & said i knew it wasn't intentional. asked if we cld talk about how to mitigate it.

STAY TUNED TO SEE IF THINGS GET WORSE OR BETTER FOR LYRA!

i am honestly going to cry if they choose the shitass route.

@mia i got a vertical mouse, a standing desk and an logitech erginomic keyboard coming soon. the mouse has been helping some. but this scares me bc.... i kind of um... need to be able to write.

i swear to god, femmes are allowed such limited range. i will be BEING SILLY or PLAYFUL or CURIOUS, and people will think i'm stupid.

LET ME BE PLAYFUL AND FUN AND CHILDLIKE FFS I AM A GODDAMNED DELIGHT.

WHY AM I A SIMP IN A SUCCUBUS'S BODY?!

my anxiety this semester has been thru the roof. i think it's for a few reasons, but kind of all wrapped up in the idea of "i am afraid someone is going to catch me for being who i am & is going to hurt me very very very badly."

i am so scared & idk what to do about that.

@eris ashdkwphskan i miss pow wows 😭 if we are ever in the same place during season we should go && eat too much fry bread 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

@julieofthespirits
yep. nothing new happened, i'm just still reeling from it.
(i think i've done everything i can safely do now && i'm just waiting to see if the department intervenes or asks for more from me or what.) 😵💫

@julieofthespirits
the whole project is made up of cis men who jaw dropped when i told them i was nb.

to have an idea how uhhhh culturally competent the advising committee is.

he also has a ww on it who "works on issues of Black gay HIV"

like what the fuck 😭 no one talks like that 😭

i deadass call my school "reagonomics university." i didn't realize it was centrist / right leaning until i got there bc the prof who recruited me was so incredible. 🤦🏻♀️

when the fuck will my years of knowledge & studying & experience be enough for men to fucking LISTEN TO ME over the whims of some dumbass little boy?

shield maiden is a queer gender.
eowyn is she/they.
no, i will not be taking questions.
🥲