@dommymommy @teratology I wish I'd be closer to a lot of the people I know online but that takes effort and having a personality that I used to have but is now just lacking in those qualities. although there is no other way, no one's gonna come and be like Hey let's talk!!, only I used to do that to people and wondered why no one else did. actually just realized that, no wonder I barely talk to anyone given I lost that part of my personality. I thought it was annoying or something and felt embarrassed. I mean, yes, but I don't think that was the way in retrospect