@JoscelynTransient yeah a charmed life for sure in some ways, all just because i got knocked off the train tracks of life by an autoimmune disease which basically meant no university would accept me for a standard degree, and i can't physically manage a 9-5 job for longer than 2 weeks before my body will flare up and collapse from lack of rest. Like, you just have ot find other things to do with your time.