@kon@kokoro.garden that's what everyone says but the riskiest thing i can think of that would be the closest to being "right" would be going back to school to do like a masters in robotics or embedded stuff and i'm pretty sure that would end with me blowing my brains out with all the stress and anxiety of graduate classes, and besides that i really don't know what else to do. maybe i've painted myself into a corner by wanting to just live in this area of the country and not willing to live anywhere else