@Witch_Hunter_Siegfried >I can't argue my faith or ideals cus I'm a useless retard
Skill issue. I'm serious. Keep debating with people who will argue in good faith with you and it will make you a better arguer. As iron sharpens iron, so too do autists sharpen other autists.
>all that's left to do is hopefully wait
Surely your imagination is not so dull. Having talked with you, I know it isn't. Think of a few other (non-glow attracting) ideas, even if they seem unrealistic or near impossible for you right now.