@punishmenthurts @hellomiakoda I'm sorry, I dont get it. Either of you willing to elaborate?
I personally got told there was something wrong with me since I was two, and abused into behaving like a normal person, which I could never perfectly achieve. I always fell short of their goals/expectations, even with my best efforts.
Across four adult years I tried VERY hard, but my body gave up and had meltdowns, w/o my consent.
I cant act like a normal person, my acting skills are not good enough.