@BowsacNoodle @newt man i was shit on so much and eventually gaslit into being told "that's wrong, you shouldn't do that", but thinking back on it i would do it again, in 4th grade there was this kid pulling shit all the time, i just punched him in the nose, after fucking weeks of bullshit, the feeling of my fist hitting his face, the back of his head bouncing on the wall he was just behind, and then immedietly him collapsing and shaking his legs everywhere, while covering his face and screeching, it was like i held a piss for hours and finally got to let it out.
i know it's a pleasure that now as an adult i shouldn't try to enjoy, but that was so satisfying thinking back to it, in general, i hate hurting other people, i tend to feel bad about it, but that was the feeling of justice there, there he fucking goes crying like a pussy to the teacher while i stand there justified, i didn't care how harshly i got punished, i was entirely justified there and i didn't care how others felt about it