I'm not sure how I feel about this. My anger is what keeps me a Christian, although I have strayed many times with my anger towards God. Feels like nothing I do is good enough, and that I'm always on the receiving end of the bullshit while those who subjugate and ruin lives continue to live lavishly. I'm tired of nothing working out - ever. I just try to tell myself that my strife is God's way of galvanizing me to do the things I need to do, but it does get tiring. Without the anger, the indignation, do I have much of a reason to have a relationship with God? It's really the only thing that keeps me going. If I shrugged my shoulders and became complacent; to "go with the flow" so to speak, I don't think I'd have the same relationship with God. I just hope that one day God decides to give me the sword so that I can swing it.