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@LRRRonEarth Thank you. I'm so sorry for your suffering.

I am struggling with a unique form of COVID trauma. I've been burdened with the knowledge that a pandemic of respiratory disease was going to happen since I was in my early teens. And I knew Trump would win by January 2016, and knew he would lose and refuse to leave office by early 2020, and I was FINALLY gaslit into believing that it was "just anxiety".

People aren't brushing me off the same way anymore, but at what cost? I should have tried harder to keep my people safe. I feel broken by the fact that I spent my whole life trying to become a person that others would believe, a kind and upstanding citizen with a good career, and it was all just such a waste. I could have gone to art school, or dropped out of school at 13 like I wanted to, or learned to play drums, or some other thing *I* would have loved, and it would have been the same, from the perspective of the looming pandemic. No one believed me!!