I’ve been so depressed and anxious before that I didn’t think I could go on. The path to contentment, for me, was a personal one. I had to develop a spiritual mindset and practice that worked for me. I currently experience a lot of joy and contentment but it took time. I had to learn to let go of ALL my upsets and replace each one with creativity and the pursuit of meaning. Slowly, my identity changed and eventually creativity, meaning, purpose, and passion became bigger than the darkness I was stuck in. I can’t offer you specific advice but I can offer you hope. Godspeed.