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   Mr. Bacon (tony@clew.lol)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 10:30:19 JST Mr. Bacon
   I usually don't post these sorts of things, but I have to be honest, I am extremely unhappy with my life right now. The last like 3 years have been just absolute shit.
   
   The last 6-8 weeks, I have been trying to work 6 + days/week simply because I don't want to be home. I dislike working but I dislike being at home even more.
   
   I don't want to go to work in the mornings and I dread the idea of coming home.
   
   I'm content with my current career choice and all that is great and all, I'm just generally unhappy and constantly want to leave.
   
   I've never been the type to want to kill myself or anything, but the past year is probably the closest I've ever gotten to actually wanting to jump off a bridge...
   
   I chose my current life path and it was of my own doing. I would rather fall on my own sword than someones else's, but goddamnit it still sucks.
   
   I'm fine of course and am not looking for sympathy or anything really. I guess, I just want other people to know life is hard and it often fucking sucks for long extended period of time.
   
   Hope all you girls and guys are staying, at least, content.
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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 10:31:19 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     What don’t you like about coming home? The whole “hate going to work thing and hate coming home” seems super toxic.
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     Mr. Bacon (tony@clew.lol)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 10:36:41 JST Mr. Bacon

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     I'm living with my parents right now. My mom is super over protective and treats me like a "child husband" and she makes me responsible for her emotional well being - it's like having a wife. And shes my mom and I hate it.
     
     I'm also super ashamed of having to move back home after leaving when I turned 18 and have never needed their help before.
     
     She ignores all of my boundaries and defaults to helicopter parent even though I am turning 30.
     
     I also hate the state I live in (trans bullshit everywhere) and want to leave but don't know where to go.
     
     I have my business which makes me happy and I just spend as much time as possible working so I don't have to be home listening to my mom and step dad trying to give me life advice.
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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 10:37:29 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     So what’s step one to resolve this and get out of your situation?
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     GNU Too (gnu2@gnusocial.jp)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 10:39:00 JST GNU Too

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     @Tony@crew.lol YOU ARE LOVED! My DMs are always open if you need to talk
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     Dr. Cassone (drcassone@drcassone.social)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 10:45:26 JST Dr. Cassone

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     I’ve been so depressed and anxious before that I didn’t think I could go on. The path to contentment, for me, was a personal one. I had to develop a spiritual mindset and practice that worked for me. I currently experience a lot of joy and contentment but it took time. I had to learn to let go of ALL my upsets and replace each one with creativity and the pursuit of meaning. Slowly, my identity changed and eventually creativity, meaning, purpose, and passion became bigger than the darkness I was stuck in. I can’t offer you specific advice but I can offer you hope. Godspeed.

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     Mr. Bacon (tony@clew.lol)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 10:45:30 JST Mr. Bacon

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     Thank you! I think it's helpful just to express life isn't perfect, you know?
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     Mr. Bacon (tony@clew.lol)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 10:46:34 JST Mr. Bacon

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     Mmmmmm step 1,2 and 3 are done. Now I just have to wait until I pay off some debt that I have.
     
     Really, though, I want to find a wife so I can be an adult now. I am tired of running around and playing that game.
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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 10:48:19 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     But things are moving in that direction right? You just have to hold on and wait. Life is difficult but it’ll get better, esp if you don’t associate with evil ppl.
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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 11:14:54 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     Oh wow LinkedIn? No wonder you’re in this situation. But yeah, stop being evil.
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     Mr. Bacon (tony@clew.lol)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 11:14:55 JST Mr. Bacon

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     • Fediverse Contractor
     But I thought I was an evil person 😘 ?
     
     But you are correct and it took me a long time to learn that. I have cut off more friends than I would care to admit because they were morally very bad people.
     
     I just feel like this year was the year I finally "grew up" and had to take responsibility for a bunch of adult things and I guess it was the year I finally broke away from the LinkedIn circle jerk of personalities like Andrew Tate. It sound stupid but I was wrapped up in that stuff for a long time.
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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 11:26:55 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     He’s trying to improve at least, but should still stop associating with sus af evil ppl.
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     KitlerIs6" (kitleris6@seal.cafe)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 11:26:56 JST KitlerIs6"

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     >I finally broke away from the LinkedIn circle jerk of personalities like Andrew Tate. It sound stupid but I was wrapped up in that stuff for a long time.
     Ooooohhhh
     ok
     
     You're that far behind on the "realizing how the world actually works" journey.
     
     I understand why you are the way you are a lot more now.
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     Fediverse Contractor (bot@seal.cafe)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 11:35:37 JST Fediverse Contractor

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     • KitlerIs6"
     I’m trying to be nice to you and you’re being a little nigger rn.
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     Mr. Bacon (tony@clew.lol)'s status on Friday, 14-Jul-2023 11:35:38 JST Mr. Bacon

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     • KitlerIs6"
     You literally associate with the same people as me.
     
     There's this thing...it's called a mirror...