@zo Of course, I chose a different direction with respect to HRT (but who knows how life will unfold later), so I'll be the first to tell you deciding to go with it doesn't say something about "how trans" someone is. I just have to meet my needs another way and it seems I can. HRT is a tool rather than an identity. If you have felt better on it, that is enough. At the end of the day, it's enough to just feel more whole and more capable of joy.