@Mrfunkedude different things seem hard in different ways. I've lost a child due to premature delivery, had a close friend blow his brains out in the woods, stayed married through intense bouts of depression (my spouses and mine), counseled my teenaged daughter when I knew she was suicidal, and had to relearn how to be a human being in my mid-fifties. Each was the hardest in a different way and each taught me a different invaluable lesson about who I am. I wouldn't do it again, but I wouldn't change it either.