@Mrfunkedude I'm so proud of you, Dude. You recognized something challenging and are going to make the effort to handle it. That's admirable as hell and not easy to do.
You'll get there. It's something I've had to do as well and cresting that hill is something to very much look forward to.
You've got this, my friend! And I'm here if you need someone to lend an ear or come up with some absurd joke. You got this :)