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   Volpeon :drgn_fire:​:drgn_scream: (volpeon@mk.vulpes.one)'s status on Thursday, 24-Nov-2022 06:12:54 JST Volpeon :drgn_fire:​:drgn_scream:

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     shitposter mongoliensis (gd5426@outpoa.st)'s status on Thursday, 24-Nov-2022 06:12:51 JST shitposter mongoliensis

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     • kaia
     Honestly, I can't really say that's something that feels entirely unfamiliar.
     
     I've alway kind of had some sort of sustained interest in what it'd be like to be something besides what I actually am irl (species, sex, whatever). Not really as something overpowering to a crippling degree, but definitely something I've no doubt entertained fantasies of in hard times in absence of likely better coping mechanisms.
     
     I suppose it's probably part of the appeal of the furry thing on some base level, and it's not really like I'd pass up an opportunity to be a character I've poured bits of my self into- but a lot of the "community" related to it online feels to me like a warning about not going too far.
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     Volpeon :drgn_fire:​:drgn_scream: (volpeon@mk.vulpes.one)'s status on Thursday, 24-Nov-2022 06:12:52 JST Volpeon :drgn_fire:​:drgn_scream:

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     • kaia

     @kaia@brotka.st I don't mind replying in public. It's not like I'm trying to keep this a secret, I just rarely talk about it because I usually have nothing to say on this matter. :drgn_flat:
     
     So yeah, I do genuinely wish to be a fox. I don't know the source of this desire, I've just always felt more comfortable with the idea of being an animal than a human. Some of my earliest memories are about me imagining myself as a bird and focusing on the sensation of having such a different body.
     It's been a constant throughout my life and I can hardly express how much I long for it to become reality. It doesn't matter that I'm completely aware of all the drawbacks and consequences, if I was given the chance I would take it in a heartbeat.
     
     Obviously, that will never happen, though. I accepted it because what other choice do I have, but I'd be lying if I said that it wasn't eating away at me at times. I found two things that help me handle my feelings: The first one is creating art. The second one is my online identity which lets me live out myself genuinely, unlike my "real" name and my "real" face. Here I'm not strictly limited to my body and I'm truly thankful that this possibility exists.
     
     As for the recent dragon stuff, I thought about what this character means to me. I identify with it because it's an expression of my creativity and taste, but it hasn't taken over the role of foxes.

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     kaia (kaia@brotka.st)'s status on Thursday, 24-Nov-2022 06:12:53 JST kaia

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     @volpeon maybe not something you want to answer at all or publicly, but I'd be curious whether you genuinely long to be a dragon or a fox, its intensity, the motivation and background :drgnthink:
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     arcanicanis (arcanicanis@were.social)'s status on Thursday, 24-Nov-2022 08:01:37 JST arcanicanis

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     I can admit to some of the same, especially with previously being a young naive person on the internet long ago, tumbling into therianthropy circles and many other corners of the internet. I don't see much wrong in fantasy, unless people warp their minds into thinking they'll "never be happy" until they're able to be close enough to living in a specific fantasy. Unfortunately many seem to go into furry fandom as an escape from "being an adult", with very little of any self-policing or self-moderation over being a rational person, that a lot of it just gets lost entirely in a whole crowd. Just watching the shift of the Overton window of furry communities in the past decade is pretty alarming.